Thursday, June 16, 2016 ♥
It's been a while since I last blogged.
Things have changed, yet seemed to be the same.
I've been working in my current workplace with Rena for almost 9 months now. Things haven't been easy.... I was struggling a lot especially in the beginning, trying to work with the different and difficult characteristics of my boss and colleague, as they were both very overwhelming and can be quite overbearing, which I can be also, at times. I was depressed sometimes... overworked often, especially during the period of time when the other clinic's echo tech went on pregnancy leave and we had to help them with their echoes. There were some days when I had to work on Sundays, many times prolonged hours... all without extra or ot pay. I ended up being a grumpy, depressed, sad and whiny person... and couldn't see any positivity in the work I was doing.
This week, I took the whole week off.. and it's a much deserved and awaited break. I would have liked if I could have gone off to a nice country... however, my sis's colleague invited her to join her family at rws.. so out of convenience, I tagged along. It wasn't too bad.. cos I still managed to enjoy a time of 'self' within a 'crowd', and I hang out well with her two kids. I did a bit a rock climbing and solo kayaking, which was great, cos I have avoided them for years for work. Just that I caught a bug and am sick :( sighs. I hope I recover quickly.
This evening I will be meeting some stranger I have been chatting on a dating app... not sure how things will turn out. I met one guy last week, also from the app. He was an English mixed north Indian guy, and was a very open guy who told me very straightforwardly that all men think with their little brains down there... and went on and on about sex, clubbing... and my boobs... etc... he told me honestly that he had planned to make a pass at me by inviting me over to his place etc... but he changed his mind. So we ate the kopitiam, talked, walked around a bit and parted ways. It was actually quite sad... for he reminded me so much of him... it was terrible...
Last Friday was his birthday, I texted him 'happy birthday' and hinted a meetup.. but obviously it didn't happen, he is after all attached. And that night, I told myself, it would be the last time I drop tears for what is not mine, and what cannot be.
I don't understand why I have/had such strong feelings for him either.
Sighs.
Gtg... need to wash up and start getting ready.. till next time.
♥reflected @ 4:46 PM
