Monday, October 30, 2006 ♥
James BluntTears and RainI wish I could surrender my soul;
Share the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I'll run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
I guess it's time I'll run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain
♥reflected @ 11:56 AM
Saturday, October 21, 2006 ♥
i'm terrible.
i make plans. but i dun have the preserverence to follow it.
anyway
i have decided. no matter wat. i shall not touch this computer anymore until after As.
right.
so tt means, i'll not be blogging for more than a month.
i have to force myself to study. i have a lot to study.
wish me luck. mans.
♥reflected @ 11:24 AM
Sunday, October 15, 2006 ♥
i so totally give up.
damn shit. now i am damn angry.
just now i wasn't. but i am now.
cos i went thr whole load of trouble to try and post pictures, uploading picts to photobucket, and in the end, i used picasa. and even typed a full entire post there.
and i pressed
PUBLISH.
And it's gone.
DAMN IT
i typed a super long post. pouring my heart out. and damn shit.
now it's gone.
damn it.
♥reflected @ 12:13 AM
Saturday, October 07, 2006 ♥
didn't update for a week.
hmm. a levels are so close.. but i haven't start any revision. sianz. cos all i am trying to do is to do all the hw given by tchers. yup.
yesterday was mid autumn festival. and told myself early in the morning yesterday that i would not do any studying. and yep i didn't.. so terrible right. but anyway it was quite amazing cos i miraculously didn't fall asleep in the first period during econs for i have been falling asleep for almost everyday's first period. haha. but my strength didn't last very long i think.. i fell asleep during math lecture. sianz. i keep falling asleep. not that it is because i have been studying really hard or something late into the night, i have been watching tv, online, etc etc..
but yeah, anyway.. yesterday was an amazing night of mini celebrations with ti lin and sis downstairs at home.. carried lanterns, play with sparks and candles, and for me and my sis, singing and dancing as if we have just ran out of mad house or something.. haha so much fun. there was a public celebration organised my the community club or smth, and it was embraced by the minister of education. we all saw him..haha and actually thought of getting a photo taken with him, but of course we didn't la...haha.
hmm.
next coming wednesday, is baccalaureate for us j2s..hmm. but tt's not as if we can dun come to schl anymore. cos there is even a mock exam table for us, ie nearly everyday we have to come back for mock exams..
seriously i'm not looking towards it. cos, baccaulaureate would mean mock exams, and soon the final A levels.. scary. scary.
damn.
oh wells. yesterday was damn pleasantly surprised and happy, other than bcos of the little celebration, was that i had some of my wishes fulfilled.. haha.. not so serious, but really, wow... wow. ya. that was just wat i kept saying when i opened the dvd andrew helped me burn stuffs into. nicee. i like! so many treaures inside. haha. not that i want to sound like a little kid who just found a bag of sweets and chocolates or smth..hahaa. really. thanks a lot man!
and i love my dear brother haha... it's almost been so long i haven't interacted with him. and i realised that he was and is always here all the way. well even though, we aren't tt very close, but i was really happy when we just exchanged a few words. one thing is that he gave me the still fantasy cd. it was so sweet lor i think. :) and then a few days ago he asked me when the As were starting early in the morning even though i was stunned by the question, and tt jerked me awake..cos i was still in my sleepy mood. haha. then i so wanted to take a photo of him when he showed me that funny face when he was telling me that you can get rashes if you dun sleep early. i haven't taken a photo with him and sis altogether for so long...
but another thing that i am sad about is that i really wished that we could celebrate mid autumn festival yesterday happily as a family in a great way. but it never happened cos i left home with sis to meet ti lin and celebrated on our owns. but tt doesn't mean that if sis and i stayed home there would have been any celebration with my parents and bro.. it was just be a makan and watch tv session. haiz. and i wish that my parents would care to ask more about my studies.. i wish that they would add more pressure on me to study other than telling me to sleep early every night..
well.
i wish.
♥reflected @ 10:18 AM
