reflections

Tuesday, February 26, 2008 ♥

its... 'more about him' this week. haha

last night i watched a movie that has him in it. he has been in 2 movies already, but i couldn't watch the other one, cos it's a horror movie. so i chose to watch this one, which is a comedy/romantic/action packed movie. really. it's quite fun to watch. very fun actually. haha. even though there will be people who are so particular and critical, thinking that it is just like 'any other korean movie' or it is childish etc, i think its good. its v fun to watch.

'The Perfect Couple'. (I don't really like the movie title, cos it makes it seem really the romance kinda of movie, but it really isn't much so. its really much more fun and exciting than how the movie title seems to imply. but i guess its called 'the perfect couple' bcos it seemed to fit in the storyline.. (even tho again, i dun very much agree..) but oh wells, everyone thinks differently. (oh ya i just found out its also called 'The Strongest Romance')

anyways. there's the trailer. and this the mv. he sang the song. woa. but hmm. he sang creep in another vid too. but decided not to post tt one, cos its not very good to me. haha.

another one is this mv. of some song. in which he acted. the ending is super uber duper sad. i was like OMG. OMG. geeez. wth. how can they do tt. but oh wells. its really a good one.

and here's him in the movie. LEE DONG WOOK. 帅帅帅帅帅

oh ya. he used to be a model. oh wow. geez. haha. sounds like so many other actors too. but oh wells.

oh ya. like i told lixian, there are some guys, who u may not seem to think to look good at first, will look very good, after you keep looking and watching and listening to him. like lee dong wook. whom i originally didn't think he look v special or anything.
but.
there are some guys, who u may not seem to think to look good at first, still doesn't look good, no matter how long how much you keep looking and watching and listening to him. like....

HAHAHA. oops. but oh wells.

there are some actors whom i dun have one or two picts of them in my folder, bcos the feeling died out quite fast when i dun go ard poking on the web. yup. so.
lee dong wook has made me and frens (mostly me) looking ard for eye-candies. but really sadly and disappointingly, theres almost none.

i guess these thoughts apply to guys too. like they must be wondering also, where have all the pretty girls and chio bus go. HAHAHA.

oh mans. geez. i'm turning a little nuts. haha. wells. soon, and i guess quite very soon, all these will die out too. when workload increases, stress increases, when i have no time and no more energy to waste on nonsense stuffs like this.

in other news..
i'm so into korean now. i love this korean band. LOVEHOLIC.

they're really good. the female lead singer's really good. amazing. oh ya. and i love the guitar she's holding in tt mv. wow.
i wish i knew korean.
the next thing i'll be getting into is korean fashion. but luckily i'm not those kinda pple who gets hooked in fashion. i'm still stuck to my usual dressing, unfortunately and sadly.

haiz.

yup. this week is supposed to be the mid-term break aka reading week aka the week before mid-term tests aka the supposed to be super super stressed week and supposed to be the super super hardworking week.

in other words. i have not had a good start at all.

geez.

haiz.

sometimes. i really dunno wat to do. feeling so trapped. going nowhere and no matter what i try to do or say just seems to offend her. and why can't see what i'm trying to get? why can't she be more self-disciplined on her own, then i dun have to nag and nag and scold and scold, feeling so stressed up becos i can't move on and also i have to worry if she's lagging too much behind. it sucks la.

and it sucks even more when becos of anything i say, she'll just keep digging downwards and harp on that sole idea, doesn't improve and just keep thinking 'oh so i'm bad i'm lousy'. i mean wth. if u think so, then do smth abt it right. RARH.

DUN KEEP HAVING TO REGRET ONLY UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE. STOP BLAMING IT ON OTHER THINGS. STOP USING ALL THOSE STUFFS AS EXCUSES.

it damn sux when i super want to give up but i can't and i shouldn't and i wouldn't. which totally stresses me up. but can't do anything about it.

SO WTH. I'M SORRY I'M NOT TT KIND WHO USE SENTIMENTAL WORDS, WHO USE SWEET WORDS AND STUFFS LIKE TT.

ya.

really.

sorry. i wish i was more lovely kinda, more huggy, more mummy kinda to help you, but sorry i just seem to be unable to do so. i just seem to be doing things and doing things. you know? i really can't help it. i'm sorry i'm not as encouraging as you hope i would be, i'm sorry i do more of scolding instead. but please, would you ever see what i'm trying to get? i really dun want to wait until tt last minute and poof.

haiz.

anyways, i was kinda angry at some number of people. however, its amazing that my anger is just feeling angry. it's no longer like when i was younger, when i get angry i get super angry. or maybe. its just because i know now that its pointless to be super angry/ waste time and energy being angry at some people/ etc. or maybe. its because my anger has become thinking that those people who i'm angry at are childish/ so i'm simply finding them ridiculous/ amusing. or just maybe. my anger has turned to sadness/ helplessness. or maybe. to nothingness. to ignorance.

its really. bad. to become indifferent.

♥reflected @ 1:27 PM

Tuesday, February 19, 2008 ♥

i myself worry about myself sometimes.

haha.

how do i manage it? but ya. i do know. becos i'm not studying hard enough.

but haiz. yup. i'm doing the 'study and slack at the same time' thing again.

oh ya. another reason why i can do it. i sacrificed a lot of sleep. which is bad.

so for past few days, i have been watching my girl online at night after i finish some of my school work. how amazing.

and what i worry myself is that, sometimes i watch something too much, i even think about it when i'm doing stuffs. its sorta frightening like something lurking in the background kind. but i guess its okay, cos the same thing happened a number of times already - the first time when i discovered youtube and prince turn to frog online. when i was thinking about the characters and ming dao especially, and qiao en; when i watched hua yang wu zun and ella, jap version, daniel henney in movie and spring waltz and the other guy, coffee prince etc etc. its frightening how they actually step in and disturb you now and then when you get hooked. especially cute guys in shows.

HAHA. at least that proves me normal sorta. HAHA. yup. but phew that after a while i do get over these guys after a while. just terrible that there are quite a number of them already. geeez. HAHA.

so yup. here's my new guy- lee dong wook.

he's not exactly very 帅 or 酷, nor cute.. he just sorta looks so honest. so humble yet proud. so classy and yet neighbourhoodly. so shy yet friendly. hes eyes lar. shoots electricity out. HAHA. its diff from the masculine handsome guys like ming dao and daniel henney.

yup my girl is quite fun too watch. diff kinda feel. from coffee prince. haha. tho coffee prince is still more exciting.

anyways.

yup. actually i was intending not to blog cos i told myself this wk's quite a busy week, but oh wells.

anyway. last thursday was v-day! yup. !. doesn't mean much tho. not like its damn exciting or wat. we still had lessons until 7 pm. and still went home late, cos i still had to go popular to get a bk for tuition, and left there only abt 9+. i was asking sis. why don't those couples (that we saw) find a better place to go, than walking ard small je? why can't they like fina a good place to hide. then she was telling me - why don't we the singles go hide instead? i was like.. oh YA.. agree. HAHAHA. it was quite an annoying day too. cos we wasted quite a lot of time we some idiot pple and said wrong things. RARH. but oh wells. HAIZ.

but gabriel came down to nus to see the bazaar or so he said. quite interesting. HAHA. cos he brought bad chocolates. i was quite amused. tho my sis felt so RARH and poisoned. haha. lucky i didn't take any, my flu would have worsened if i had. too bad he bazaar was quite boring, there wasn't much stuffs. there was no music, just very commercial selling of goods. so was kinda disappointed. haiz. but yeah! we got balloons! (thanks gabriel)-and yup thanks for coming down and included us in your 'people-to-meet' list (i read ur blog before this post) HAHA. we had quite a fun time, tho quite short sorry kept u waiting cos we had to finish hw. haa.

so tt's abt all for v-day.. except. yup. terrible lessons. difficult lecturers and tiring day. stressful and so on.

friday. spent a lot of time completing the lab report and stayed up late to watch goong on tv. (even tho it once was on tv and i watched on youtube, the starting portions i didn't get to watch). saturday. work. was quite happy i covered stuffs that i planned to. but quite RARH cos there'll be some disturbance this wk. but oh wells. haiz. not smth i can control..sunday. preparing for yesterday's lab and doing school work and watching my girl. yesterday yup, lab and school work and my girl again.

HAIZ. me. BAD.

geez. hahaa GAMBATE. FIGHTING! A CHA!

♥reflected @ 11:41 PM

Monday, February 11, 2008 ♥

again.

yeah. i just changed my blogskin again. using abt 1+ hours. originally i only wanted to blog, but stupid i.e has some prob, i can't even log in using ie, so i'm forced to use firefox, then i was thinking, ok wat the heck i shall just changed the skin so tt its firefox friendly and there u go. wasted my time. but oh wells.

anyway. ya. time is damn precious. cos 4 days of cny just passed like that and i didn't touched schl work at all. not a bit. except for today did my part for a presentation. shit.

happy cny!

this yr's cny is actually sorta the best compared to previous years...
originally on the first 2 days i thought it would be sad, cos no visiting, only went out for a good lunch. on the 2nd day, ate lunch at westmall, and together with sis,bro and mum, watched KUNGFU DUNK, which was good, quite fun.

and so i thought that's it! i shall study damn hard on saturday and sunday. but suddenly saturday we went for two house visits and smallest aunt's and uncle's house (my mum's side). was really glad, even tho i was damn worried of time. before that i wasted 2 hrs at the polyclinic..which gave me another appt to do another ecg today later in the morning. hmm. first time we got to eat a reunion sorta dinner together after years with them. even tho dad cldn't eat those stuffs, but i was happy he went eventually.

today or rather yesterday, i spent the entire day preparing the 鱼生to捞, with sis and mum. again wasted another day.. but was really happy! first time having that in our house and doing it together and from scratch. pounding the peanuts, making the sauce etc. even tho i was really =( when dad refused to eat with us.. haiz. but really sincerely hope this year of the rat, 2008 will be a good great year.

so happy cny! here's some picts... =) (haiz.. schl is starting again.. and stress is coming so fast. 2 lab reports, test on wednesday etc etc. OMG...)

i still have a cousin this young...

2 of our girl cousins...

compare with last year:

the 'reunion dinner'

the ingredients all laid out properly after hours of cutting cleaning washing slicing...

LAO ah LAO! 捞捞！

my dear sis eating..

okay really shld go sleep now.
i will really study damn hard after i wake up in the morning later.

its already sooo late.. =O

♥reflected @ 1:56 AM

Thursday, February 07, 2008 ♥

happy lunar new year!

hmm.

dunno wat esle to say.

just that theres a lot of school work to do, lab reports presentations tests...

geez.

i just cleared my table for the new year and my stuffs..

hmm.

the comp seems to have some weird things going...

i hope theres no prob..

geez.

♥reflected @ 1:23 AM