On Wednesday, 26/01, went to swensons with og. Nearly vomited blood out. This is the first time I spent $12 on food. Nevermind. The important thing is that my ogls are so so NICEEEE!!!!! Thank you for being so nice ogls!!!
After eating, we sat there interrogating Yen nee and Andy. I don’t know if I am allowed to say this publicly, so I might as well not say anything. I don’t want to be said as gossipy.
Our ogls gave us each a soft toy thingy that can be attached to a pen or sort of, with a message inside. I got an elephant..so cute!! They also cut up the tarendis flag, giving each a piece so that in future we can fix it back…
Went for guitar practice without bringing my guitar..(-_-)||| , sat there with aipheng, also without guitar looking at the instructor teach.
Went back home try to follow up but could get no where.
Yesterday went to the Henderson old folks home for cip. School ended at 4.30, we waited for the bus and no bus came. So we decided to split into fours and take cabs. We walked so far away from school, and suddenly they called and said the bus’s here. So we waited at a bus stop for the bus and by the time we reached the home, it’s 6plus. Supposed to teach them how to make lanterns with red packets, we didn’t really noe how to….
Managed to some how..
Most of them speak Chinese, few English. Almost everyone spoke Cantonese, whereas since I am hokkien, dunno wat they saying. I heard from some one else frm class, tt they were complaining to each other about us. Apparently, they didn’t want us to be there and thought that they were forced to do those things.
Felt very heartbroken and useless when I heard that.
Went to balloon twisting workshop on Monday, only managed to teach us 2 styles, dog and rabbit. He asked us wat we thought abt the wk/shp, and spoke up frankly. Tt I thought it wasn’t worth $15. Then he decided to cut the price down to $8. Quite happy after that. Walked a few outside pple from the door to the sports complex, when they asked me where are the badminton courts. Felt very happy to lead them there.
Got 5 GP articles to do, a Chinese compo, and tutorials for maths, econs, chem., bio…
Tt’s a whole lot. Have bio test on Monday.
Haiz….
i hav a disgusting pict here:








hihi
yesterday was a very tired day. could have slept for the whole day. instead when to my sister's ogl's b'dae party, and spent the whole day there swimming.
ended up going home at 8.30p.m.
got lots of tutorials and lecture notes to do and look thr.
haiz
i was just reading thr. my blog, found out that zixian has been reading it and posting comments quite consistently. ;D. Thank you very much!!!





i m tired now, headache and sore throat attacking me.
i didn't get in for the two productions, camelot and night of laughter. but i got in for mime. only a few pple were chosen for mime. so i have no idea whether tt's good for me or not. i m so pathetic. i dun like gp. i hate reading newspapers, i hate having to noe abt current affairs.
so today we hav some research tt has to be done over the weekend in grps. i couldn't find a grp. pathetic.
k.
gtg, bb






okay. so i didn't get in for the acsian theatre movement(dance) audition for camelot. and i don't think i would be able to get in for voice audition also.
i feel so useless. i can't dance, i can't sing, i can't do sports, i don't want to join things like the entree council and watever subj club. i went for the first-aid thinggy and didn't like it either, but i can't take it as a core cca too. i signed up with library but then it crashes with acsian theatre. i didn't hear anything from the guitar club too.
so, i am so lousy and useless, i can't join anything good.
i have no common sense, and no sense of rhythm, i also don't noe how to smile when i m tired or unhappy or anything, which i presume is one of the reasons i got kicked out.
so i am so useless.
wat else can i do?




i'm at school again. we've got free periods again, which we must treasure real good, because most probably, it won't be as relaxing as it is now.
oh yarh. campfire and cca extravaganza.
the campfire was overall quite fun. so cool, at first i didn't notice the string attached to the fire. so when i saw the 'ball' of fire lighted up by our principal, i thought she sort of blow it or something..so nice. there were the letters ac formed by cloth and wire burning to show that ac spirit never dies....
we had cheerings, then each cavalon will put up their special performances. i belong to the group called tarazul, the og called tarendis. we had performances from the dance and the acsian theatre. their dances are so powerful, i can never think of dancing as good as them. well i tried my best yesterday..we haven't get the results yet. so i was so very impressed by their dances. the whole campfire was mainly each cavalon's performance, most of them very lame.
at the end, we had to the mass dance. at the last moment, i didn't mind to do the dance again and again. i miss the mass dancing.
i fell down on friday, and now i m stil in pain, can't squat down, sit too long and stand up to walk also pain. terrible. so yesterday when we did all the stretches, it was so painful for me.
ok, next to the cca extravaganza. like the name. sounds a bit sophisticatd.
met many of the pple i noe. and still i m missing the school. not just the canteen food, but also the surroundings, the library, the classroom teaching, the teachers and yarh. 4o3o4. i went around in my class telling them about the mons. o, there is this guy called david studying french in our class. when the teacher said that he studies french, i turned and said 'bonjour' to him..for fun lah.. and he replied back haha and he calls me scala. most of the pple calls me yu lin, except meixi the very enthu girl in our class who insists on calling me scales, which i srongly objected..
i went to the eldds room, so it newy furnished. still needs to be more cosy than that. taught those pple our mass dances...looked at them performing for the sec 1 kids. well 'most' pple, esp. shee yong (he has to, as our x-chairman), laughed at the 'should be funny' skit. i thought they were all very lame. nan hua eldds compared to ac's drama is sort 'sky and earth' difference. every new batch we receive gets worser and worser. they do not take thigns seriously, and are all so childish. the acting needs so much of brushing up....syf.........gold? a very long journey ahead for them.maybe a change of teacher-in-charge might be good...dunno..
hmf. i still want my book reviews, esp. the one on the mulberry tree. i spent so much effort and time in it, to plan out the map and then draw it and colour it then write a description of the place. i love reading and tt's why i spent so much in the bookreviews. i show the books i read a lot of respect or rather the authors who wrotwe them. so if the books are good, i spent time explaining why i think they are good and comment about them.
so much about the books.
went to nanhua library and met mrs.lim. and saw mdm wang miss their 'mummy' sort of teaching.....
i miss mr teoh's pro teaching.
haha. met seow ting and paul, and weiting their gang. yarh they will always be in their clique.
the nanhua dance is still the same. lousier than ac. haha
ok. gtg for recess....
saw yen nee and andy just now. these two pple everyday together. heehee.
k.bye.




heya
today i went for the drama, Acsian Theatre. so we had an audition for camelot, a may production. on oh my goodness we had to learn a dance....which is for the movement audition. next week we will have to voice audition.
Terrible.
they people who taught us are so pro!!!!! the dance is so quick i cant really manage..but nevertheless, i hope i do get in. we had to do so many stretches...man pain ah!!!! tired...reached home like about 8 plus...
cant talk, got to go do my tutorials..
tommorrow, if i hav time at sch, i might just come in and post...
bye then.




hihi.
now i am in school. so, we are supposed to have lectures, but it is a free period for me. got nothing better else today, so followed nanhua pple to the library. the library is okay lah, only got a little books..
chun fong and veron crashed over from hwa chong...
oh yarh. i actually wanted to talk about the last day of orientation. in the afternoon we get to meet our class. didn't really like the class actually. after that i went to queue for the lecture notes....don't like to have to buy your own notes. wasting my time...
after that went to meet the og people, and we had to waited for u-jin, kimberly and brandon. they were writing the thank you notes for both our ogls, yen nee wrote the one for u-jin in chinese...
after that we went to plaza singapura for lunch-cum dinner.. i was trying to call home to complain to mum about class and watever not, but it was about 3 plus, she's cooking...so she didn't want to talk to me.....
and pple from my og also don't talk to me....
so miserable....
then, i figured out that if i went around telling pple i don't like a certain person, eventually, he or she might get to hear of it...
then, hai lin tried to tell me that maybe i should act more mature and treat those pple i don't like in the same way i treat pple i like and watever..
so i get so angry, hoping tt i will never grow up so that i get to choose wat i like and don't like, however i want to treat pple, and not thinking of others before self, so that i can don't be tactful....
grr...
i was so angry so i cried...a bit accidentally
then anything that could make me cry began to come to me, i felt angry then sad, depressed and very miserable..
after we reached ps, i felt much better. lighter. we went to eat some jap food, and then we went into a shop selling cute things to find yen nee. then we heard the superstar song..we had a mass dance to it. so i was so excited. i ran out to those pple still eating to tell them about it...
now to think of it. i could have dig a hole and hide myself in there.
so i suppose they are thinking me this person so crazy, at one time crying, at another time, laughing...
at the mrt interchange...andy commented i look the oldest and u-jin the most mature in the og. ok, he emphasized on the old word, and added aged. so.. how can you tell a girl that!!! ok he said he was joking... and he was preparing to run in case i hit him or wat, seriously i didn't think about that, so i just..okay run after him. this is so childish and stupid! then i heard some elderly man (see i wrote elderly) voicing his disapproval, zhe zhe fan yan that kind...i immediately stopped in my tracks.
well, i got him to explain clearly his words..he said something about me having to smile more...hey! come on, he is older than me! he is 18 going to be 19!
it is supposed to be recess now.....there are still more to talk about, about camp fire and nanhua cca extravaganza. i like the og generally more than the class.
And i still miss 4o3o4.
the mons.
i checked out asknlearn and saw mrs lim's message...happy. wanted to reply something, but didn't noe how...........
felz told me about the 88th nan hua anniversary...guest of honour our pm mr lee hsien loong. but goodness...having to pay $60??? no no no. it is just the cost of the a-level t/bs...
i want to go for recess liao...have to get the economics notes too...





actually, i wanted to write a very long entry, but i spent too much time, adding people from my og to the contact list, not enough time. pple start talking to me, actually just three pple, but i've got too much things to write for this blog.
it's all in my diary too.
my mum wants me away from the comp too...
haiz.
i will, i guess find time to type everything . everything about the og time, the last day of orientation, and campfire....
okie
tt is all
bye





My mistake. THe last thing starts at 4.30, ends at about five plus.
I am quite annoyed now.
Yesterday, we ended like 6.30 plus, so ogls decided that we shall go eat dinner toghether. We changed and waited until about 7.45 plus, for our ogls to come back for their debriefing. Most of the people, out of the 17, didn't go. I was thinking not to go too. But i did go. we went to Holland Village, Burger King for dinner, spent about 6 bucks. My parents came to fetch me about 9 plus, reached home like 9.45 plus. Extremely tired.
we had to learn these two mass dances. very tiring also. got so dirty during the games until even the inside was brown. i refused to take part in the game that involved paint.
Tomorrow is the last day of orientation.it ends about 7 plus, with the camp fire as the last 'event'.
we get to know our classes today. don't noe anyone from my class. Don't like it. I hate having to make new friends all over again.
Tomorrow, at about 1.50, we have our individual og time all the way until 6.30. They were thinking of watching a movie then eat fast food or eating some xpensive nice lunch at some posh restaurant.
Like neither of them. i already watched quite a few movies lately, plus i dun want to waste money. i am hoping that i can stay out from both, either i eat lunch at school, read my book and wait all the way until 6.30 or, get myself somethings to do...dunno wat....
I just don't like it. call me stingy or anything you want. i am not rich. my parents are not rich. my family is not rich. i don't just go around watch movies, eat outside and watever else.
We are having classes. And none of the people in my class are pple i noe. quite used to the og pple liao. i feel irritated.
I miss nan hua. I miss the food, the classroom, and the teachers.
Most of all, I MISS 4o3o4.
I want to cry!!!!!!





Heyo!
School's here!
I got posted to acjc.Oh yarh, my mistake, not camp. just orientation. Whereas my sis got 3 day camp on wed to frid.
Tired man.
Ac not bad, i Like most of the people there.
I belong to a group called Terendis. And our ogl is so nice, Grace and U-jin. U-jin was born in Hawaii but is the mixed blood of British and Chinese ba. He is so cute, so nice!!!Haha.
My group has people from Indonesia, Vietnam and China. The two Indonesian and Vietnamese are Chinese, but don't noe chinese. But because Andy(the Vietnamese) looks quite a lot like Alex, i kept on speaking Chinese to him, and after that, he looks at me strangely, then i knock my own head.Terrible ..haaha.
I'm so tired, the orientatio lasts for one whole week and there are so many dirty mass games. want to sleep..have to wake up early too. School ends so late! 4.30! Got cca after that then even worse!
TT's all for today!




school starts tomorrow. quite scared. recieved a call from acjc pple, about the induction camp, bring xtra clothes bla bla.i quite sure that there will be a mess, which i hate, must be got mud water etc. I hate camps. I hate getting dirty and messy. i am not looking forward to it, not looking forward to tommorow.

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