Friday, March 25, 2005 ♥
Thank you SeowTing for your encouragement!
Next week we will be having mass lectures, in other words, I guess I will be in a less stressed mood. And it also means that I will have some free periods, and I hope that I can go swimming next Tuesday, becos I am free from 11 plus onwards, but have to wait for guitar till 4.30….
Joan says I look like a fortress, my sis says I like unapproachable and David asks me everyday why I look sad, why I don’t smile….
Haiz.
meixi….how come you can be so cheerful everyday?
I tried to be, I once was, but so many things happened; I am not now, and is on my way giving up to be a wat pple call an optimistic person. Neither am I pessimistic. It’s just that most of the times…I…don’t feel anything. Or rather, I am in a serious mood. I don’t know why and dunno how to change me.
I still remember my sec 3 ‘motto’ was xiao kou chang kai, and I kept it up until half way someone popped up in my very innocent life. In sec 4, I tried to start afresh, yet so many things happened. Like I said before, I tried to put the many things behind me, and thought I was successful. But in the end I discovered I don’t seem to have been successful, that was on the day after o level results came out, on ac’s founders day. It wasn’t becos of the o level results; I remember crying for dunno whatever reasons, when in my hands I held the result slip. It was again becos of someone else, of something that happened, which brought out what happened to me. And for dunno whatever reasons, I couldn’t keep calm that night. After that I thought I finally got over everything.
Now I don’t understand why I typed all that.
The nan hua pple I noe are all in nj, and I am so miserable and alone in ac.
I hope when the second intake enters, I can start anew again.
♥reflected @ 8:21 PM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005 ♥
i am still in acjc.
i am very very very sad!!!!!!!!!!!
all pple i noe went to njc
i m so alone here....
i am so sad so miserable so lonely
haiz.
♥reflected @ 9:13 PM
Monday, March 21, 2005 ♥
who's anonymous? pls leave another comment with your name...thanks!
next time when all of you leave comments, please leave your names too, thank you! ;P
tomorrow the posting results will come out...i sort of know where i will land i guess..
haiz.
♥reflected @ 9:24 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005 ♥
March holidays are ending within 1 day.
And the problem is, I have not done my homework yet.
how?
♥reflected @ 3:25 PM
Thursday, March 17, 2005 ♥
today went ice skating with my sister and i managed to teach her how to iceskate, but dunno whether she can or cannot. haha. met some really bad pple. there were some pple trying to ball up crushed ice, and there was a girl who purposely tripped me. because there was once my sis was going to fall and sort of held onto her, the nearest person, then she very bu shuang.
very busy. got lots of stuff to do. tml have guitar audition to pick out the better pple(i hope i am one of the good ones), and maybe will drag from 9 to 4. but i want to swim with a friend tomorrow....
got lots of homework to do and i haven't started anything yet. terrible!!!!
♥reflected @ 7:58 PM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005 ♥
This week is supposed to be the holiday week but I am still very busy and still sick. This week I have three guitar practices and on Monday we had the 4/3 class outing. (zixian! Why you didn’t come?) it wasn’t really fun because I left with my sister very early to go home for dinner and I couldn’t swim because I am sick. And my sis pushed paul into the pool without knowing he didn’t bring extra clothes and he sat down there angry at me and my sis. Hmpf.
Happy Belated Birthday to Michelle Cheong!!!
She’s sick too. Wonder why everyone is falling ill…su phei’s also sick…
Got lots of homework to do…. Got 13 article reviews to do, a gp reading package to read, maths, bio, chem., and econs tutorials to do…
I doing very bad in gp. Already failed 2 tests. I hate reading newspapers.
Gtg and do work liaoz. Haiz.
♥reflected @ 3:15 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005 ♥
I am so damn tired and sick now.
On thursday, after school have to go for guitar and then go to drama for mime practice. on friday, after the founder's day celebration have to go down to adsd complex to perform, but unfortunately, because the carnival is only a preview, there's nobody for us to perform to.
yesterday went to the library.
and i am still sick.
tomorrow got guitar practice and then 4/3 outing. haiz.
♥reflected @ 5:47 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005 ♥
This week is the last week of this term. This Friday is ACjc's internal founder's day celebration. Yesterday had drama meeting until about 5.15p.m, then had to rush home to eat dinner, bathe and then rush to clementi interchange to meet the guitar pple to go to the ucc to watch the genus guitar concert. they are really very pro.
Zixian: Good luck for your council election. Hope you can get in.
I have been knocking my head on the wall trying to figure out whether i should go the nj or stay in ac. many pple has told me to go to nj.
but i finally decided to stay. i guess.
♥reflected @ 6:58 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2005 ♥
Yesterday was Arts Night at Acjc, guitar ensemble(i.e me and pple) had to perform for the first item. But it was a lousy one, I think, pple also tell me. My sis crashed over yesterday too. Someone told me tt tt piece we played was lousy and when I told him tt we are going play it for syf, he said we won’t get anything, I was like…okay…I accept the comment.
After the day we received the o level results, some things happened, making me realize I haven’t got over the things tt happened to me last year. I realized that I never once did accepted the things that happened to me and sort of forget about them. Meaning, I have not actually started life anew completely. I think, after that one day, I finally am getting over the things. I thank the people who helped me through. Thank You.
Sometimes, I feel tired of life, tired of living. And sometimes, I feel like closing up and live in my small little world, don’t want to talk to other pple anymore, but I do know that I cannot do that.
I just want to tell some pple like me that even if the whole world doesn’t love you, you must not give up and not love yourself. No matter what, if you don’t have friends, you still have your family. If you don’t have family and friends, you still have yourself.
♥reflected @ 2:17 PM
