Friday, October 22, 2004 ♥
Hello…
Think I won’t be able to blog for about 3 weeks or so…
O levels are here… Just has the chem. Practical tomorrow.
Don’t feel like talking about it.
After Os I will have lots to blog then…
Bye! See you three weeks or so later!!!
By then maybe I will be too happy or too busy having fun to blog…
Really hope the end of o levels come quickly.
But of course I hope the days after os go slowly..hahaz!
♥reflected @ 7:20 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004 ♥
Heya.
So…I gave myself a real big fright yesterday.
And it started with someone else giving me a big fright.
Yesterday, 15 Oct, was the last day of official school for the sec 4s until the O levels.
Yesterday, we had two periods of PE, thanks to mrs lim, who agreed to lend us one of the chemistry periods. Well, so..it wasn’t fun for me though…volleyball was sianz, I couldn’t play well, tt stupid ball too hard, too thick. Badminton and table tennis- no chance to play. Basketball also sianz. Gym…haha..embarrassed myself, dunno how to manage the equipment…dun tok abt it.
Recess was okay, lent money to joan, don’t feel like using all the money I have for lunch. Wen yan’s birthday yesterday..Happy Belated Birthday wen yan! (if you see this..haha)
Oh yah, I lucky got one piece of wenyan’s durian bdae cake..hehee..nicee. Then, hwee hwee, veron, wan ying, su phei and me were discussing how to divide the rest of the choc cake, pushing every larger piece to one another..hahaa
Bio was okie. Was shocked and surprised when terence and paul did a “gay” act- carring each other…someone took a photo of them liaoz..hahaa. We actually had to do our self-revision of doing the so many bio w/ss, but noone was in the mood larh…Lesson over, we greeted Mrs Ong, who is pregnant again (so happy for her), very loudly. Took class photo with her.(think I look quite ugly there though…)
English sucked. Ms ong came in wearing a black dress, everyone wowed..hahax. Oh yarh, we messed up all the table arrangements…So she asked if anyone done the research on leaflets and brochures. So I gave up mine to her, some others also. So she set off writing on the board. Lesson over, she handed the paper back to me.. I didn’t feel happy abt it…so, I ended up tearing up my own work and throwing it away. I am still upset at her, I really want my book rewiews back man! I spent so much effort on them! Especially on the one-“The Mulberry Tree” by Jude Deveraux! Hmmmm…
After that was lunch. Mrs Lim came in. Checked the locks and gave us the farewell gift. Everybody got one small cupboard, in colours of blue, pink and yellow. I chose the yellow one. Then somebody suggested exchanging the drawers so tt everyone has one colour. So nicee…It was so sweet of Mrs Lim! Yarh those best wishes words…haha, at first some pple thought they were written by Louis, his handwriting..ahem..quite illegible..haha..I already guessed it was written by Mrs Lim’s son. The nicer handwriting ones are by Mrs Lim’s husband…heehee, I got the nicer handwriting one…;P
After going through the chem. 2002 paper, we had to go and clean our classroom. Mr teoh, our maths teacher was our supervisor neh, at first refused to pass us..hhmmf. He went to the windows, and did this: raise one finger and wiped across the window pane…yarh all the blackie dust…L. So everybody did our part, grabbed pieces paper and started to clean them…Hahaa, those were the extra worksheets…haha!!! Somebody, dunno who, even crumpled up the piece of paper that was for mr teoh to sign to show that we passed, by mistake to wipe the window pane. Hahaaa! The paper behind became black haha! Mr teoh was so amused lorh lolx!!!!
Then he was going to leave, we wanted to have a class photo with him.
So all of us went off to the lift lobby…
Then we insisted that mr teoh lie down in front of us! At first he insisted no way!
But we all tehh him and even shouted “Lie down! Lie Down!” until he gave way to us! Hahaaa! We were so happy! He was so embarrassed …haha. Then he had to lie down there for 6 shots for 6 cameras and we still tell him to change pose….hahaa. He rocks man! Haahaa, then we pulled mrs lim in. at first we wanted her to lie down the other side and we did the same tehh thing and chanting, but ahuh, we were very kind larh, on excuse she wearing skirt, nvm larh..hahaaa!
By the time it was 3.30 plus liao. Helped Eileen carry her things down to the front gate where she called for a taxi. After that I went to the library to help mc photocopy the telephone list, then the old libarian told me the yi tian tu long ji 4th book came back liaoz! So happy! So I borrowed it…stayed in the library to finished up a book I read last time when I hid in the library after my o level oral when I was so red due to the dengue fever.
Around 4 went down to the canteen. Some 4/2 pple and three or four 4/1 guys were playing ‘basketball’-so many pple, seemed more like throwing ball. Some guys were playing soccer. I sat down and read the 4th book while waiting for my parents…then the fright came…
I was so absorbed in my reading…then Desmond suddenly shouted “boo” or something behind me. Dunno what happened there, I just knew I nearly fainted. Really fainted. I think my face went white or some thing, then suddenly I couldn’t breathe properly, felt very cold, like all the heat went off me, and the part between my nose and mouth started shivering non-stop… I was telling myself..omigod! dun tell me I’m fainting or something, then I was telling myself..dun you there faint! Dun you there faint…so I kept on taking deep breaths..i was so scared and feeling so bad tt my ears began to tear, and I was going to cry man! I fought those tears and kept on trying to calm myself…desmond went to buy himself a drink and asked me if I want to drink anything …I said no…so I continued breathing..sort of heaving…until..yarh..I finally calmed down…think desmond couldn’t see wat was happening to me larhz..it wasn’t really bright in the canteen…
Now to think of it…haiya if I really fainted…nobody would be able to help me..
Then my parents gang hao came and so I left, to fetch my sis. I was feeling alright by then liaoz. Yarh, told them wat happened.
My dear mum is sick…and when I reached home she told me to sleep earlier so that she can see that I sui zhao liao then an xin…aiya, told her is some small thing lorh, I won’t faint again in my sleep, dun worry all sorts..plus she so sick and weak liaoz…
Maybe tt’s the reason mum dun wan me to go chalet?
But I think daddy dun allow becos it’s not a school organized thing..
That reminds me. Sis graduation was on 1st oct, after prelims, before o levels, in the school canteen, wearing the school uniform and school tie…very bad larh. So some prefects and head prefect’s mum decide to organize another one at orchard hotel at nite wan. I was so glad for my sis,…but my parents didn’t allow her to go, reason being, first of all, at night, not safe, second, not school organised one, no teachers, not safe…
Haiz.
Beginning to think, if I hadn’t say tt my high tea graduation was compulsory, will they still let me go?
To think of that, I still dunno when is our graduation, what is the theme, dresscode and everything…thinking what I should wear…hahaa
Today was National Junior College’s Open House. Me and my sis went. Met 4o3o4 pple there…and I am very pissed off at cheng rong! He borrowed the yi tian tu long ji 1st book, and supposed to have returned it to me yesterday, said he will be coming today so can return. In the end, he didn’t come. The next time I will see him is next thursday, our chem. O level practical. S***! Wat if he forgets again? I have to return all the books by next Friday! My sis haven finished that book yet!!!!!!!!!GRRRRRRRRRR! CHENG RONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IRRESPONSIBLE!!!
So back to the nj opening.
I was very enthu to see how big the library there was, how many books and all..haha
Very funny man! Someone came up to my sis to ask her if she wants to join canoeing…and another person asks me if I want to join Chinese orchestra…hahaa! So do I look more ‘femuunineee’ than my sis? Hahaa!
I am quite interested in the guzheng and western dance though…
We went in search of the loo….haha, sure it was at some corner or in the middle, we went to all corners..hahaa, and guess what? We found it!!!
Saw the rock climbing, my sis was very eager to try the climbing..in the end didn’t.
Saw the touch rugby, thinks that our school and class girls play much better..hahaa.
Played a very short while of badminton and got “gan diao” by another person haaha. But my sis continued playing quite okay against another guy..forgetting my presence…haha…Paul also joined in to play badminton after shee yong. But didn’t have chance to see..sis finally figured out I want to go liao..
We went off to see the shooting club, my sis was eager to try, but I wasn’t. so I insisted to leave.
Got annoyed at my sis.
After that, we left and took bus to bukit batok and mrt to clementi, went to a jap restaurant and have lunch, ate a mac ice cream and went home.
After that go home liaoz.
Next week is the start of O levels…
Best of Luck!
Now, I have to go and sleep liaoz. Bye.
♥reflected @ 10:45 PM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004 ♥
Thank You everyone for your concern...
I am still thinking about the chalets wateva. I think i might not be going to any...
I feel quite bad now...shouldn't have gotten upset abt wat my parents say ehz...
♥reflected @ 7:09 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2004 ♥
Okay. Now I know.
I am a poor kid living in a poor family. At this age, I am still a young child.
I cannot afford broadband for internet, cannot afford a handphone or even a discman, I cannot even afford to buy my own things.
PLUS Now I cannot afford to go to chalet.
My parents ask me why i should go.
My parents tell me it is not necessary.
My parents tell me it is not ke xi at all.
My parents ask me why I should pay.
NOw I cant even afford to pay the school magazine and the graduation day.
So. Shall I go out and earn my money now?
So, it's tt the reason why my dad suggests that i go to poly?
then, how come my brother gets a handphone, a discman, goes to independent school- chinese high and is now in HCJC?
They could afford all that. But not for me and my sis.
They say they are very fair.
My mum says dad cares for me and my sis a lot.
My mum says dad doesnt even care for her.
Strange. We cant see that.
Look. We cant even afford a rice cooker, not to say a washing machine. My mum washes the clothes by hand.
Strange. We cant afford those high tech things selling outside.
When I first asked dad abt sec1 chalet, there was hope. In the end, no.
When I asked abt sec2 chalet, i didnt even feel like asking. it is still, no.
forget abt sec3.
Now. Sec 4. I asked abt the 2/3 and 4/3 chalet, when he first sees $330, he asked why should we pay?
My mum says, bu ke xi, in future you will have lots of chances, the person who shld be going is her.
huh???
I am holding back tears while typing this.
So. Sorry peeps, I will not be going to any chalet.
so. after os, i will be home preparing for jc.
as for prom............
suddenly all sad things come to me.
I am so miserable.
at least you pple have your hangout grps. me, i only have su phei who doesn't stand be me at all.
i walk myself to the bus stop and home everyday.
after prelims, i'm back home packing.
the only thing i can turn to, is however, my books.
i hooked myself to books, to pull myself away from reality.
Don't feel like facing it.
So, books. That's it. Reading's my hobby.
now i have to think how to fork out money to pay for su phei's birthday present, and maybe wanying too, school magazine, prom and everything.
and mum says it is actually me and my sis 's fault for dad's hand injury.
so. how are we supposed to handle that?
are you people going to wish me luck for my os?
hahahaha
can you see i'm crying?
face it.
don't go don't go lorh
♥reflected @ 7:25 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004 ♥
Finally. Finally back from the torture chambers…
For the past three weeks we were having prelims. For the past many days, I was studying.
Now, I am worried. About my results. The results will determine where I will spend my first three months next year. They will decide whether I will be in jc for those three months…
Okie, so besides studying…
There was one day after exams..cant remember which day..guess Wednesday 29-9 bah…after the exam.. as usual, I took bus 198 home. The moment I entered the bus and sat down….some uncle started talking to me. He asked-o levels ah?-I replied yes-nxt year a levels?-nodded my head-and he paused. Thought that was all. Then he started blabbing on about the importance of English and Chinese. Abt himself noeing how to speak both languages, how some university students speak very good mandarin, then turned the subject to Chinese novels (wu xia xiao suo)-tian long ba bu, and shen diao xia lu, abt the martial skills in there and how they are the same…..i sat there, nodding and saying yes yes… for like what seemed several minutes…I didn’t noe wat to do..considered alighting, but thought why waste time and money for another bus…considered keeping my cool and continue listening-problem is, I couldn’t hear him clearly and he is speaking real slowly…I was trying my best to be patient………..in the end couldn’t stand any longer, stood up and told him, I have to go up to the ‘second floor’-said my friend there…and I quickly walked up-he said-talk to you (or see you- cant remember) next time. My hair stood up…:O
Besides that, nothing big happened.
Oh yarh.. books.. due to my sister… I ‘mi shang le’ yi tian tu long ji- another wu sia xiao suo which was showing on tv. It is the ‘continuation’ of the shen diao xia lu. But we are not allowed to watch it on tv. So I went to the library and asked to borrow the books. I borrowed the 1st of the 4 books to let my sis decide if she wants all four. Who noes the next day when I wanted all the 4 bks, the last one is borrowed away! Hmmf. I’m still upset abt tt.very sad larh. Becos the tv is showing going to the end liao, and the most exciting parts are in the 4th bk! Then pei si appeared said she wanted to read them too…
But then left only two weeks eh… by 15th October, it is the last day of school, I dunno whether can hold onto the books…and I badly want the last bk…. And I feel quite bad tt pei si also wants to read them….
So …
Tomorrow I’m getting the results for prelims. I am really worried man!
-I don’t feel like writing down everything that took place the past few weeks…no time… cant recall…
-hoping for the best tomorrow…
♥reflected @ 7:35 PM
