Monday, November 27, 2006 ♥
hmms
can't believe it has only been 4 days after As.
it seemed so long ago.
anyway i haven't been doing anything exciting..except reading a few books, playing some games, watching some stuffs from youtube, watching tv, running, yesterday window shopping and today swimming. later i'm still going out with my family.
yesterday went out with chun fong to accompany her shop for a prom dress. like after so long.
it's quite wierd for me that i could really pretend nothing happened in the past or just put all of them behind me and still go out with her.
or maybe. everything was done because of an unknown purpose.
anyway we spent about 4 hours simply wandering in one area, wisma atria. isn't tt amazing? so much time just in one place. in the end she managed to get smth for herself. while for me, nothing was interesting.
today early in the morning had to wake up cos my sis wants to go swim. so after breakfast and getting ready we set off to go jurong east swimming complex. but. it wasn't open. and my sis started to get grouchy and angry like last friday when we couldn't swim because it was raining. luckily we manage to go bukit batok to swim all the way to 12. the sun was damn hot, i'm now darker, and my sis sun burnt and her skin even peeling off. wierd. cos now it looks like it's going to rain or smth.
haizzz.
♥reflected @ 1:32 PM
Monday, November 20, 2006 ♥
i am like
feeling not very happy.
there's only 1 more paper. bio paper 1 left.
and guess wat. i'm not feeling very joyful that As is ending. i'm actually quite afraid of it.
like. i really want to do stuffs i want to do. and i dun think i will be able to.
like. think of all the stuffs i will be told to do. becos my exams are over.
like. i dunno.
anyway. i'm super crazy over a taiwan show. and i dunno if i'm sad or happy that i found out that i could watch some of it on youtube. cos like.
imagine yourself in a big cage. with food and water and watever neccessities. you r supposed to feel happy and satisfied cos you've got all of those.
and you so want to feel so.
but there are things that distract you. opportunities that give you hope but actually they are jus causing you to lose more of your hope instead.
imagine your heart being cut out and stepped and trampled on. and your pride thrown out. and your morality questioned.
imagine yourself trying to be good.
it sux.
then imagine one day all this will end.
when would tt be?
♥reflected @ 9:44 PM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 ♥
so yup.
it was my birthday two days ago, on monday 13th nov. it was also my sis birthday. haha.
couldn't like celebrate it much cos i had to study for chem and econs paper on tuesday. but we went out for dinner at west mall, and dad bought us a cake. which turned out to be the same that my bro had this year. :)
i was actually wondering like who will actually remember me and my sis bdae cos of As and all. but there were still some people who remembered. thanks :)
and my bro even bought me and sis gifts. so nicee. was so touched and happy :)
yup. today had the rest of econs paper and tmr's free until friday chem p1. so slacking now lors.
a bit de terrible la me. have been wasting so much time watching things on youtube. my fav tv drama prince turn to frog, princess hours and prison break.
still got 3 more papers to go.
yup.
must study hard.
♥reflected @ 9:53 PM
Friday, November 10, 2006 ♥
曲名：霍元甲 歌手：周杰伦 吓 命有几回合 擂台等着
生死状 赢了什麽 冷笑着
天下谁的 第一又如何
止干戈 我辈尚武德
我的 拳脚了得
却奈何 徒增虚名一个
江湖难测 谁是强者
谁争一统武林的资格
小城里岁月流过去
清澈的勇气
洗涤过的回忆 我记得你
骄傲的活下去
霍霍 霍霍霍 霍霍霍
霍家拳的套路招式灵活
活活 活活活 活活活
活着生命就该完整渡过
过过 过过过 过过过
过错软弱从来不属於我
我我 我我我 我我我
我们精武出手无人能躲
♥reflected @ 12:41 PM
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i was thinking. about life. about the purpose in living.
i remember about 4 years ago, when i was in sec2. we were told by the literature teacher to each write a poem which may be selected for our schl's anniversary book, about love, anything to do with life, loyalty etc.
and i came out with this poem which went into the bk. but as i read it again, i see the irony in it instead. cos i no longer agree with the poem i wrote.
this is wat i wrote then:
_________________
The purpose of livingHe who sacrifices,
for the country,
for his wife.
the reason-love.
She who works hard,
for the school,
as a teacher.
the reason-love.
They who work hard,
for the school,
as students.
the reason-love.
He who fights,
for the country,
as a soldier.
the reason-love.
She who works hard,
for the company,
for her children.
the reason-love.
They who work hard,
for the world,
for the earth,
the reason-love.
All who work hard,
for love,
for the country,
for the school,
for their children,
for their job,
for the world,
for everyone.
The purpose of living,
Is giving love.
______________
And now. i so disagree with wat i wrote then.
because the purpose of doing all those stuffs they do is not because of love. it's no longer that way. it's responsibility.
he who fights for the country, not because of love, more because of responsibility. they who work hard, not cos they love their children,more cos of money to live and to feed them who are their responsibility. not all teachers teach because they love the students. some teach because they teach. it's their responsibility to teach. besides, they have to earn money for their own living anyway.many students don't study because they love to do so. it has become their responsibility to study, for their own future and also because their parents are paying the school fees.
anyway i have just typed a whole lot of crap.
cos i m not very happy now.
cos this morning got yelled at by my dad. about housework. so i was told. i'm fat because i'm lazy and dun help do housework and all i do is sit. so hello. sit. what do i sit and do? other than typing at the comp. i sit at the table to study. and hello wat the hell for? As.
so i bet. even after As. i would be stuck at home doing housework and packing my stuffs. and one possible way to get out of housework for me is to go to library and grab books to read. and so i will be stuck home to my chair reading. so i'm fat. so i sit. so i shall not eat and become anorexic and bulemic and fat and oh wat sad life it would be.
so that was wat that brought me to think about wat is the purpose of living.
it's like a cycle. a vicious cycle perhaps. a cycle of life. you wake up you brush ur teeth you go school/work you come home you do more hw/work/watch tv later you go sleep. and the next day the same thing happens. doesn't tt sound like the matrix. and they say life has ups and downs. so they are supposed to make life more exciting? ha ha.
i mean talk about love. and giving love or watever sorts.
anyway i have just crapped even more.
so i'm in such a super duper crappy mood.
i can only say. all people see the same things differently. for example religious pple can tell others wat is the purpose of life,because they believe in a certian religion and wat it tells them.
so maybe i need to believe in smth, and have faith in smth. but now.
As first hah.
i m so just crapping.
i should stop. crapping. stop letting my mind wander.
just do wat i am supposed to do. whether it's responsibility or not. just go study eh.
♥reflected @ 11:40 AM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006 ♥
A levels.
finished gp, maths p1 and bio p2, today chem p3.
and there's more to go.
so.
life sux now.
and few days later.
i have to spend my bdae studying for econs and chem paper.
nice.
rite.
RoaRRs.
♥reflected @ 2:35 PM
