Monday, March 24, 2014 ♥
Fell really sick last week.. Woke up with stomachache, didn't think much of it.. but I had a lot of backache as well.. then a lot of nausea.. struggled to continue working.. and pulled myself out of office after work to wait for a taxi. The queue for taxi was v long.. and as it was change of shift, many taxis refused to pick up customers.. Finally before my turn.. I suddenly vomited. Yep, all my insides just suddenly came out.. it was really horrible.. at that moment, I felt slightly better actually, but I was pretty shaken.. luckily, the taxi came just right then.. Went home and vomited again... What followed was days of diarrhea, and bloating and pain.. Didn't go to work for 3 days...
Yep it was really horrible.
And it was also the deciding factors that pushed me to set up my mind to quit my current job. I can't quit it right away though, I really need to find a new job first. Sighs.
We've moved to the new centre, and together with it, there's increase in workload..
And a lot of physical pain.
I like the job that I do, I'm proud of it. Unfortunately, there's just too much pain. And i'm not the only one with the pain.
Hope a good job offer comes.. and hope there are better things ahead? I don't know.. sighs.
Had a long dinner with two friends from yoga class - my yoga teacher and a girl who came to know me during the class and started to keep in contact with me more and went out with me for movies and such. She's much younger, 7 years younger, and she's full of life, cheerful and adventurous. We had a very expensive dinner (expected it to be ex, but not that ex.. :X) at sakae sushi after class. We ended up chatting about my life decisions, her life perceptions and my yoga teacher's route to becoming a yoga teacher, and some random stuffs about politics etc.
Told them about my decision regarding my job, both are as supportive as some of my colleagues, and my mum and sister.
My yoga teacher asked me about my intentions for my job search. He asked me why choose the same kinda job if it's the job scope that is causing me pain? I told him I actually liked my job scope, just that it's too heavy a workload here.. He asked me if I ever thought of becoming a yoga teacher.. I told him that I have. Just that my mum is not supportive of the idea.. sighs.. so..
I'm not so sure of what the future lies ahead for me..
I just know now that I need to give less of my 100% at work and take care of myself more..
I can only hope for the best.
Ganbatte...
I hope to find that guiding light.. that will help me and bring me onto the path to more happiness..
♥reflected @ 12:18 AM
