Monday, April 22, 2013 ♥
These two weeks have been busy weeks...
Finally the presentation is done and over.. Throughtout the weeks, there have been things I learnt...hmms..
I think one of the most important lesson that I really need to remember is - NEVER to be complacent. And always know that there are still many things that I do not know and that there is still a long way ahead of me. It was a mistake I made, and the dr put things to me in a blunt way. It hurt me, but..because of that, it etched deeply in me, and I hope I will always bear it in mind.
In level 3 now.. for pole.. It's been quite okay I guess, not as many bruises (or maybe not yet) as compared to previously.. in level 2.. Still have to bulk up on the strength part so that it will be easier.. which means, need more conditioning.. and then probably try to lose more weight.. so that I can be lighter. Both are challenging tasks to accomplish.. One accident already.. sighs..Fell down during the second lesson, hit my jaw, shoulder and knee when I 'flew off' the pole hahaa and yep sure it hurt. Bruised my jaw - luckily it was underneath, so not as visible. Will have to be more aware and careful to avoid any more accidents.. if not it's really quite dangerous.. and might just raise the "I think I should quit" bar..
As for work, I think it's been increased in intensity.. can feel that my workload is on the rise, and I need to pick up my speed and improve on my accuracy and specificity. I think that both are important in helping to do my echo properly so that the doctors can reach a correct diagnosis. That is what makes me important. I must remember that, and hence do my job well.
The hammock yoga trial didn't go well... sadly. The first time we went down, they told us the instructor had to visit the dr last minute or smth along those lines (when in fact he went for holiday O.o, which we found out), and gave us a subsitute abs yoga class. Didn't really enjoy myself, cos firstly didn't go to do that, second I felt imbalanced with all the focus on my tummy only. The next day, there was class, but they didn't give us our slots, claiming that they were full, and the person in charge was on mc. So i was really pissed off. Very disappointed too, cos I really wanted to do the hammock yoga, which might become my subsitute for pole.. perhaps.. it's fate telling me not to give up on pole just yet?
Last week I had a two-day course on service distinction. At first, I was like wth why waste time attending some course to hear some person pestering me and preaching to me.. trying to brainwash me and stuff.. But I told myself that since I am going to be there, I need to be there with an open mind. Yes, I can be critical, I can have doubts and all, but I need to at least hear. Cos it will only be fair to hear them out first then decide if I want to question. I must say, at the end of the two days, I learnt some stuffs - how some things are really unbendable cos they are policies and stuffs.. so I guess the best we can do, it's just do our best to help them.
I went for a meditation course this week.. and I guess I might continue to attend regularly. My friend invited me to go along with her. It is called "Sahaja Yoga".. I find it a little weird cos there are some kinda rituals to do before the sit-down meditation.. hmms.. which is kinda weird.. cos I am more familiar to my usual yoga practice.. I guess I will patiently follow through the 10 weeks and find out how it will be..
This morning, I woke up with body aches.. back muscle soreness...hip muscle soreness (is there such thing as hip muscle?), shoulders... wow.. all from yoga yesterday.. quite awesome huh.. haha altho quite a bit of soreness sia... just moving makes me feel.. oww... haha.. that's one of the many reasons why I am doing yoga..and still at the cc, with my yoga instructor. I get to exercise, sweat out... Tone my muscles, and at the same time, calm myself, learn about myself and enjoy the moments..
One day... I will manage to go up nicely into a proper headstand and leave the wall.. and another day... I will be able to lift myself into a handstand... haha.. I am glad to feel improvements in strength and flexibility in my body.. and hopefully gain more in time.. and maintain as well.
I think I am in love with yoga.. kinda like addicted to it. Hahaa..but not the extremist kind definitely! I am only like spending time on yoga on weekends.. altho I do hope to do more daily perhaps? haha. That will be in time to come - I think firstly, I must start manage myself better - my body clock for one. To wake up in time and be at work earlier.. to have more energy and get home and always still be able to get ready for bed and stuffs instead of getting knocked out kinda..
I wish to be able to find more people like me.. who love yoga.. who love to be with me as well... I dunno how that process can start... perhaps I am already trying.. but I am unsure of the journey still... Fate? Is it in our hands or not..?
I can only move forward, and continue to strive to work hard, perhaps.
♥reflected @ 12:12 AM
