Sunday, March 31, 2013 ♥
I was looking for a dream... And I thought I found my dream...
To be able to learn and do aerial silk.
And to do that, I had aspired to learn pole first as suggested by one of the instructors.
But recently, I am starting to have doubts about pole. One of the main issues include my shoulder and wrist pains from my work hazards that seem to be aggravated from pole. The second worry is about the several bruises I get from learning pole. My yoga teacher says, if you are really into pole, you will feel that they are simply part and parcel of the learning process. That I do know, and although I do not carry them like trophies of my hard work at pole, I do not strongly feel against these bruises. It is just that with my job scope about heart and blood circulation, it just doesn't feel that healthy to have so many bruises, so I kinda don't feel very comfortable about them.
Yet, it is undeniably, I must say that I have gained some things from pole. One - more activity - more life, less stagnancy, more fitness. Second - although at first I was pretty drained out from the physical demands, I have indeed gained strength. And also, I have widened my social circle a little and know some more people.
However, there are just doubts. I had a short chat with my yoga teacher, which reminded me of the 'dream' that I told him I found - 'To do more of the things which I find the 'together' feeling' and also to find people who I have the 'together' feeling as well. Kinda like to find the things that I enjoy, that I am 'in sync' with, that has the same vibe as me. As I told him, I felt like I could do yoga every day, for life and everywhere. This was the feeling I got during yesterday's yoga session again. It just felt like yoga is already part of me. But I could not say that for pole. He suggested that I should go for polity night that is happening coming saturday, and then, I can 'test waters' again - if it is the same frequency as me, and consider again. That was what I thought of as well, to wait till after showcase. I think it will be quite a pity, though.. if I really give up. Sighs.
Showcase is tomorrow! I hope to be able to do the things I want to do.. and I guess most importantly, have fun as well!
One of my pole classmates has asked me to go for a trial class with her at celebrity fitness, for hammock yoga. I have been wanting to do that already.. So I'm actually quite delighted to go try. Unfortunately if I really do that, I probably will need to drop pole, don't think I can manage that many activites, plus still do my work and study. Somemore, taking courses need money de lehs. However, something I don't like about celebrity fitness, like true fitness etc, you have to pay a membership fee for full year that kinda - and you can come for any lesson any when - your own choice.. Hmms... I rather the classes have a syllabus kinda..not like you can jump into a class as and any when. I don't like that the instructor doesn't give individual attention to students as well. This was my experience from one session at true fitness. I mean, yes, yoga is a very individual thing, but the reason why instructors are important, I feel, is that there is a need for guidance and also watch out for students to prevent accidents and injuries from happening. That's why I like my yoga lessons at frontier. I think I will go for the trial class and see how.. Then work things out from there I guess..
Last Friday, I took the plunge and bought Le Noir tickets for sis and I. =) I'm glad we managed to do some stuffs together outside our daily work =) It was a pretty awesome show, though I felt if compared to Cirque du Soleil, it is much of a smaller scale and less grand and beautiful. My yoga teacher actually got a privilege to do a free workshop with them! Awesome right, I am super jealous!!!
Last Sunday, went to NUS guitar concert 2013, 'Introspection|Reflection' , which was held at Yong Siew Toh Concert Hall. It was a pretty good one, marveled at some of the performances. The 'Impatience' piece was very memorable. Never mind that I am very much less music competent than the reviewer from straits times, I thought that the music did bring me some thoughts and as I listened to the music, memories of the past came to me, and I did wonder - if I had the chance to go back in time, would I make the same decisions again? Saw jc up there, and remembered the times back in ac when I was struggling very hard almost in everything - in guitar, in studies, in class and with people. It was definitely a lousy experience at ac, but I must say, like I told Esther, one of jc's church fren whom I gave a ride to jurong east, it made me grow more independent and helped me to adjust to uni life more easily. And I also realised that in my heart, I do know that guitar is not something I am really that passionate about, unfortunate it may be. Anyways, I was very thankful that my yoga friend went with me hahaa. It was quite unlucky for us, cos we met at 3.30 to swim, but it kept raining. The swimming pool didn't allow us to enter also. we waited till 5 then decided to eat dinner first, but still it didn't stop. In the end we went to jurong east instead, and we actually got to swim for 30mins before we left to NUS. But at the end of the day, both of us were v hungry. hhahaa. luckily i drove, so we went off to eat a bit before going home. =) it was an awesome day.
This week, was a bit crazy, cos there was a lot of work for me, and I was pretty stressed up. I'm still working on the powerpoint for the echo sharing session on Ischemic MR that I will be doing with a senior.. Then there are stuffs I need to read, and some measurements I need to do. And there is this other senior that is chasing after me for some nonsense stuffs. O.o. And seriously, I pray that these 2 doctors don't come looking for me tomorrow and yell me and stuffs... cos I did their echos.. and they are really strict people. A relief though, is that I took leave tmr for the showcase...so let's just put all thoughts of work aside tmr.
Ganbatte! Must jia you k! Do a great job!
Alright, that said, I need to go and work on them alr. hahas.
♥reflected @ 3:12 PM
