Monday, January 14, 2013 ♥
Sighs. I'm pretty worried.
Cos I'm not sure of how to handle the stuffs.. cos if I really want to sit for the major exam, I should really need to apply really soon.. and there's going to be a lot of stuffs to prepare - paper work, people talk, and of course, mind prep and studying for it. And I'm not sure if I am ready to face all of that, and I'm kinda at a loss, cos I haven't thought of working that much harder on my job yet... In my 'depressed' state previously when I was really upset about stuffs at my job, I decided to focus my life on other stuffs outside job.. that's was the plan - to focus my other life outside career life. And I sorta still want to do that, to try to discover other parts of life and learn to enjoy my life more.. but now that I have passed my competency test at my workplace and hearing my shifu's suggestion... Last year, when I was just starting training, I already had the attention to sit for that major exam, but I had thought that would need to be like 3yrs later... it seems like it's not needed now.. but yet I'm kinda not sure and hence a little jittery about it.
I can't take too long to decide!
=X
anyways. still. congratulations to myself for passing the test! woots! finally a huge stone that I can put down. alltho I'm still a bit sians cos there was this question that I actually know the answer, yet I doubted myself and wrote another. =X what's wrong with me mans!
but i'm glad that I have set for it and passed it. nevertheless, there's more to study still. I must keep on my toes and continue to strive for the better.
speaking of that. I got myself injured again. this time I was too excited when I was doing handstand, and tried to kick off the wall and then the next thing I knew I overturned and landed on the floor. super pain. sighs.. I have to be more controlled next time. shouldn't overdo things anymore. horrible. so yup I pulled the back of my leg and had a hard time walking and during class. phew that it's getting better alr. phew!
these few months watched a number of movies, including hotel translyvania, cz12, cirque de soleil and les miserables. cirque was a last minute decision, after my yoga teacher mentioned to me last week, and I couldn't think of what to watch and it popped up in my brain.. and somehow I'm glad I ended up watching it. it was all thanks to Gabriel who helped to book the tickets and accompanied me to the movie. It was awesome. There were some really breathtaking moments and the last part which I sorta expected, didn't let me down either.. so yep. maybe.. one day i'll be able to do silks too...
les miserables was awesome too! hugh jackman was awesome.. haha at the beginning I found that every word sung was kinda weird, but slowly it rubbed onto me and it was getting better every minute. yup. superb and resounding story.. =) hahah.
alrights.. I shall end here.. cos I'm really feeling the weariness slowly creeping up me.. and I am starting to fight sleepiness..
All the best for the week ahead!
May I find the resolute, strength and will, to decide and settle down to strive for what I want to do!
♥reflected @ 1:18 AM
