Tuesday, January 01, 2013 ♥
It's 2013!
Happy New Year!
It's been quite a while since my last post.. actually, i have been trying to type a post on my phone thr my journeys on the bus and trains.. but it's really kinda tired and hard to do, so i gave up and now that draft shall remain as a draft.. afterweeks of trying. haha.
2012 - a year of many realizations.. of trying to learn new stuffs and learn more about myself. a year of starting a new phase in my career...
2013 - i'm going to try to stop trying.... hahaa. lol. i realise many times things don't seem to go well, because often i keep trying very hard. so i am going to start to learn to enjoy doing things as they are, hope to be able to ignore what my mind keeps wanting to try to do, but follow my feelings and heart and my body - to let them lead me. it'll be pretty hard.. but it'll be damn fun.. cos i once had that damn good experience once - when i just felt my body 'talk' to me during yoga..and when i finally put down and really danced during pole session. - a very rare experience, but i'm determined to make it happen. haha. ganbatte!
not to forget of course, my competency test for my work is coming right up close in 9 days' time. freaking scary and worrying cos i have so many people including myself whom i cannot let down. and yet i have been procrastinating so much and have not been studying. i am ashamed of myself - keep blaming of my lack of confidence in myself when i do echo - but in actual fact, i know the reason why the 'lack of confidence' and how to gain confidence, which is simple - study. I really do need to get down and study. no more joke. who says i can't study as well and be as knowledgeable as the drs? (ya of course to be as good as them, probably not) - but as long as I want to, i should at least become the best of myself in my work.
So to sum up.. my new year resolutions -
1. Study more and do better in my job
2. Believe in myself more, let go and enjoy yoga and pole
3. Choose happiness and less of frustration when doing things
4. Take up more courses if possible? I want to learn guitar, learn skating, learn hammock yoga.... there are just so many things i want to learn. hahah but i can't be too greedy i guess. one step at a time. somemore take courses also need money sia.
And have faith.. that as long as i do things i'm really passionate about, i will be surrounding myself with people same as me too...
My friend wrote me this phrase from Ghandi's -
"Be the change you want to see in the world"
I also like these words from Paulo Coelho -
GANBATTE!!!
♥reflected @ 3:06 PM
