Monday, September 17, 2012 ♥
yoga class has been postponed for these two weeks. last week was because the yoga teacher had to go for reservist (LOL) and this week was cos the studio was occupied for some other activity. it was my good luck then.. hahaha cos i had to miss these two sessions. last week i had to attend the sing valve at Grand Copthorne hotel and this week was our DnD at Marina Bay Sands. awesome right? hahaa cos i would have hated to miss yoga lessons.. although.. i still can do at home..
i got to try out two yoga sessions at true fitness last week though. the first one was called dynamic yoga... it was meant for more advanced yogis.. so luckily i have some background to begin with.. it was tough poses.. but all in all, i didn't like it much. cos it was mainly transitions from downward dog to some tough pose then to downward dog then to some other chim pose and it was tiring on my arm.. esp with my weakened arm from previous injury and now work..so it was just a lot of stress on my arm. another reason i didn't like it was that everyone was more or less working on the poses themselves already (assuming that everyone is experienced).. there were a lot of people trying to do the poses. may i emphasize - "Trying". i felt like i was struggling to put my breath through and focus and tt i didn't like the feeling. so .. yep. not a great experience.. and when i finally got into it and started to sweat.. it was the end already... sighs. the second lesson was Slow yoga, or 'yin yoga', so to speak. indeed it was slow..and really kinda tough. we get twisted into a pose and had to stay in the pose for 5 minutes. so that really takes a lot of focus and quieting down.. which was really.. tough. haha.. so i'm really glad to find out that i really like my own yoga class. Hhahaa =P
anyways.. these two weeks have been kinda tough.. cos i felt like i was walking on ice all the time.. so afraid of stepping on some people's feet.. it was really kinda stressful.. i just wish.. for everything to be smooth and peaceful. the thing is, i don't fight for it, yet someone does it for me.. and it's for me, i'm grateful.. but.. it makes some other people unhappy.. SIGHS. big SIGHS. nevertheless, we can't possibly please everyone i guess. just hope that i will be able to live through all that calmly, and still smiling.
i think part of me still naively hopes for that 人性本善, which is really silly.. esp cos when i was much younger, my mum already taught me otherwise. i think.. i should stop hoping that.. not because i should start believing that 人性本恶, but more because i think i should just focus on myself.. and work myself properly.. cos there's no point i be concerned about other people's character. yup i hope i do rmbr this, cos i find myself easily steered to think about what others think quite easily, though less now.
today's supposed to be a study day.. but in the end, it has become another slacking day.. haha. oh wells.. dnd was afterall, last night.. so i just took time to sleep... (esp cos i had a horrible sleep last night; woke up with neck pains and headache).. and upload photos, look at photos.. haha sighs. i couldn't really believe that i have graduated and it's been more than one year since my last DnD (Life Sciences' DnD 2011) - i thought that was this year somemore! lol.. yep. time really flies. anyways.. i didn't wear a dress.. although my first intention was to wear a long dress which i bought.. but my mum and sis both thought that it was too casual.. i wore a brown jumper.. i'm really glad i made that choice and bought that pair of shoes, cos they're really comfortable. although even up till now when it's over, my mum didn't favour my outfit. sighs.. but i still liked my outfit.. haha
after the event, some of the doctors invited to some drinks.. and we just shared gossip.. unfortunately, the take home message i got was.. that.. we are just technicians, and they probably want to get to know some of us because we are after all, 'useful' at times. i wanted to try and keep the good impressions of some of them.. but it is really unfortunate that, i probably will have this message etched in my brain....... haha.. sighs.. this is after all, the working world.
anyways~! i miss yoga! and my yoga teacher! LOL. haha i miss the after session chats.. and the advise that i can reflect and think about.. but i do know that i have to work on them myself, at times. i should really try to set aside some time to sit down quietly..
but i really do have to study more too!!! time is like so little! like omgosh, soon i will be having my exams i think! that thought is really horrifying.. =S i think most importantly cos i want very much to know more of what these things that i'm taking are.. and making correct decisions is so important..
tmr.. a new week starts! ganbatte!! hope things get better!!
♥reflected @ 2:34 AM
