Monday, January 31, 2011 ♥
its the last day of jan 2011~! and only two posts for January. haha. life's kinda messy now..
honours project is supposed to be near its end, yet i'm not even halfway there through the project. haiz.
i'm sorta sianed with lab. but then i'm not sure if i'm sianed with the lab work or sianed at the pple. but one thing i do know, is that i very much regret for staying at that lab to do my honours project. sighs. it's too late to regret, neither would i have known such a thing will happen, still hoping that as time passes it will change.
but still, i'm ready to give in all i can and push on till it's over (not like i have a choice, but ya.)
been thinking of many things.. of what i want to do when i graduate.. my teacher said, i'm glad there are many options laid out for you.. oh yesh, there seems to be many opportunities, but, after dreaming and blowing bubbles, we still have to realise that we have to come back down to earth and face the reality. yes i know, we should challenge it (but then i have tried quite a no. of times, and never got anywhere far.. forget the argument that bcos i subconsciously doubt myself, i couldn't put in my all..? maybe That was my all. sighs)
chinese new year is drawing near, and my prof has already hinted to me to not forget of making use of the 'holiday' to do more work.. (actually i have anticipated and am mentally prepared to be at the lab during the cny days, but i'm sure he doesn't think i do, oh wells.)
i shall try to rmbr tho, what my teacher said to me: some pple have to spend a lot of time and effort trying to discover what they're really good at and want to do, but try not to think that the time and effort are wasted, cos they are very much used to tell yourself what you are good at and whether your really wanted to do that.
but, what if, i do sorta know, but can never get to that cos i am, really not tt capable enough?
anyways, i have been trying to focus more attention and energy on my studies and stuffs, but the thing is i keep falling asleep really early, which leads me to not being able to do almost anything. esp when i do have a lot of things to do. yet i still fall asleep during lectures, which is really horrid, cos i am already finding quite hard to understand some of the lectures. sighs. poster presentation is 23 march while thesis is by 7 april. sighs.
i think i really need someone (or maybe myself) to keep moving ahead, concentrate on my studies, ensure that i'm just focused on mugging and nothing else. sighs. i think i really really do need that. it's going to be the last sem for the 4 year's course, i really really should put everything i have into this.
haiz.
zzzzZZ
♥reflected @ 12:36 AM
