i have a bit of time before i have to set off to schl for econs lecture..

sighs.

i'm in this really down mood..

so many disappointments... failures..

i'm feeling all worried, vexed, sad, frustrated, lost, till the extent that i feel as if i'm floating.

i feel as if i lost all the resolve, perseverance, optimism and confidence i could have..

i can tell that my prof is starting to lose patience with my continual lousy experimental results.. even if i want to continue to persevere and repeat and keep doing till i get it right, he wants me to move on first; but i really do want my own good results..

but so many sources, keep telling me that i won't achieve, no matter how hard i try..

i'm in such a state, that i am not focusing on the things that i should be concentrating on.

i keep slacking and slacking, only that i just continue attend lectures, go to lab, do things...

but i haven't been devoting all my time to what i should be doing: studying.

i'm really quite worried about myself, but i can't seem to pull myself back to focus, i think esp doing it myself, with no one to keep me in check.. i'm just like a lost sheep..

I sit and cry thinking of all the regrets
How life seems to be always unfair.
I move on putting any dreams away
Hoping that I'll find them come some rainy day.
No matter how tired and weary
I will walk on.


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