Sunday, August 01, 2010 ♥
work was tiring.. but okay. only that once again, i realised i had failed to draw a proper line across; bringing in too much feelings and sharing too much with them, and caring for them too much, making their problems mine...
at those moments.. i actually felt quite worried (right after i felt good that i could share things and stuffs with them).
actually. maybe its now.. or cos i'm tired... or its closer to school starting, i feel especially
apprehensive and scared.
i was very decisive and determined one moment during the week, that i'll find something else, something that i really want or at least am more interested to do. i started sending emails... and only started to falter when i reached home, worrying about how i am going to decide my immediate future. Then.. when i got no reply, i thought its a relief cos there are no more dilemma. Headed off to really continue and start the new project. Yet just when i did so, someone comes along with an invitation. haiz.
i realised also today...
that i can learn the theory, study it and all..
but can't do it in practical.
either i really need a lot of perseverance or talent.
i want to do quite a no. of things, but it seems like always, things won't go my way. i want to learn music and art. but i'm in science and nvr got a real chance to dot that.
maybe bcos how i was brought up, or maybe i'm just not good enough..
i want to do something nice today. and not cramp up at home watching tv or stoning.
any ideas?
school is starting soon. i am so not looking forward to it.
anyways
bad guy is damn nice. but its ending nxt wk already. i think i'll miss it.
♥reflected @ 1:55 AM
