Sunday, July 18, 2010 ♥
i dunno if its bcos i have been staying in the lab for too long or being solo for too long, that i've become socially inept? what i mean is that i have been voicing out my opinions too freely, thinking that they really mean right and well for the listeners. only after coming home or sorts, then i realise i have been really stupid and immature. saying things that other people might not even care and not want to hear. or saying things as if i know it all.
take for example the incident at the hairdresser's. the boy (the reason i use boy is that he seems to be younger than i am..) asked me how i wanted my fringe cut, and i said, "hmm.. i don't want parting that's all". and so he replied, "oh, no parting means flat la". on hearing that, i was actually quite alarmed. at the moment i struggled if i should say or not, but eventually i did comment to him that i thought that it was not right for him to say that; just as saying that there's only black and white, and that as a hairdresser, he should be consistently looking for innovative creations and surprises etc.
and so on the way home, i thought that even though i meant my words well and i was urging them to continue upgrading themselves cos they deserve better, i have left a really bad impression of me - a bossy, irritating, kaypo? customer.
i feel sad. actually. that yesterdays events didn't go as well as hoped. not only the things that happened, the situation, but also the things that i did and said. i probably left with pple thinking of me as a bitchy person... the optimistic view would be that it is now different fr the common image that people seem to portray me as - nice, innocent and docile.
as a result, i feel like a dumbass. i feel as if i dunno wat's the real me and etc.
but i do not deny, i am very easily affected by my surroundings, and what people say of me.
i think i should stop here, cos i feel if i continue to ramble on my personal stuffs, i might go into more personal, which is bad in the cyberworld.
so transition to things i have been doing.
lab work seems to be endless. i'm getting a bit frustrated cos i can't seem to find the end.
i'm not looking forward to cors bidding and school starting.
i have read two books.
one is a nice and light-hearted one, by meg cabot : "boy meets girl".
its written in the form of journal entries, emails, im(instant messaging) messages, phone messages, receipts and such.
strong writing style and writing power. i like.
the other is by paulo coelho : "brida".
daring, philosophical and good. will be one of the books i like, out of all he has written
i have been watching two kdramas - the first one is Hometown legends (2009)
i found that i really like the stories. they are really meaningful and touching.
the second one is Bad Guy. i haven't really been watching it actually, cos i've only seen eps 10 and 11 - which means i dun even know how the characters met etc. reason being i have been struggling with deciding if i should watch a kdrama, as i keeping coming home and get totally knocked out by fatigue.
but these two eps have already caught my attention. good acting, i like. perhaps i will watch more.
me and sis watched Ip man: the legend is born, just as it was about to stop filming in theaters already.
nice. different story, different layout, better than i expected.
ok. i shall end the post here! hope it will be a good week ahead!
♥reflected @ 11:04 PM
