Saturday, April 25, 2009 ♥
actually. i didn't want to blog.
but then i realised, if i don't, i'd probably have no post for 1 full month, which is april.
oh wells. the first 2 wks of april had been crazy.
the second week. 6 April 2009. monday. 2 presentations. 1 poster and 1 powerpoint. the first was for fst and 2nd for ch. the previous night was totally. crazy. no sleep again. had to do both presentations on sunday. luckily we did a bit of planning in the first week. but the first week was no better, cos we had the second biochem ca, i didn't do well for tt one. but i rmbr we stayed in school to study until really late. then had to take bus home.....it was tiring. sis fell ill (she still haven't recovered yet), so on sunday night, she fell asleep earlier. luckily she did the research stuffs. so i had to organize all of them and do them out. like. until 3/ 4 am, i finally fully compiled the entire group presentation, then continued to work on our poster, which was really a tough job. print, cut, paste, change font, size, pictures, organize... all the way till nearly 5+, my mum woke up to help me with glueing, worked on everything until nearly 7am. went to catch a bit of sleep until 9 to go to school. missed the ocean chem lect. went to school for lunch first, then prepare the scripts. i was angered and saddened by an incident that happened during lunch, so much that i decided i shall not eat in megabites anymore. sorry to those who treated us very nicely there, but i don't think i can forget the incident.
first presentation to take place was the poster one. we were the first group, and we were quite unprepared. so we decided to wait for the second person to come hear us present; but she took very long to come (cos she came fr the other end, i.e we're the last this time); yet straight after that lesson we were supposed to be the first group also, to present the ch ppt. how messy. how rush. and somemore it was raining. so we got really anxious. luckily our ch group members managed to arrange us to be the last to present. after successfully presenting to the second person, we ran from the -in the middle of nowhere lt20- to lt 32 to take the bus to arts. with our giant poster cardboard, and laptop. and ran down the stairs and then climbed stairs... and finally we reached the ch tutorial class all panting and sweating and it was damn tiring. it was quite a gd presentation. our group:
tuesday 7may. terrible. horrid. cos we decided to stay for ch lecture this time (we missed abt 3?) we also stayed in school to discuss the ch report. and guess wat it ended only 9.30pm. like everything's closed. so we travelled to clementi for dinner. wednesday was studying for ocean chem lecture, but was very much interrupted bcos of the stupid ch project. thurs rushed to schl to take the ca, but was shocked to see that everyone was still studying in the lt. we were like ah??!? luckily it was pushed back, cos we were 15 mins late to the original time. phew.
11 may. horrible. early in the morning, before we sat off to work, my dad announced to us: 'comp spoilt. i put in the recovery disc'. i nearly fainted. really. no choice, had to go to work first. i was damn anxious. msged my bro, he said this 2nd time, diff fr the first, can't recover the data. i was aghast. i nearly cried. but i mean at work. no. can't. smsed the few pple i knew if they could help... but. ya.
luckily i only started the ch report on the laptop.
12 may was horrible. spent the entire day and night and another morning doing the report again. sis was still sick, so after saying her points, she went to sleep. so i sat the laptop typing, searching. until 4.30am. the other 2 girls in my group called me and asked me wat to do, cos the other girl in our grp did her part but it was far too short in comparison to ours. my sis woke up, we discussed the problem over the conference call, finally decided to omit hers and change the qn to suit ours. so i let my sis do more research i went to sleep. she woke me up at 6.30am, she went to sleep while i continued. typing, doing all the referencing, conclusion etc etc fully completed at only 9.30am. didn't sleep more. went directly to school after printing them all out. fully compiled: 9000 words. that's 13 may.
14may sis went home earlier to rest, and so i continued to attend the genetics and ch lectures for the rest of the day. i was really tired.
this sem i lack sleep. very deprived of sleep. my dark eye circles grew darker.... i look even more unhealthy and tired now. haizzzzz. ugly.=(
last friday, the last day of the sem before finals. went ard with sis to buy a bdae cake. and a slice of pandan cake. went to school to attend only the last 10mins of lecture. gave yi lei the pandan cake, telling her the cakeshops haven't made the fresh cream cakes yet. and she happily accepted them!! me and sis were like woaa. so touched. had lots of fun. celebrating her bdae, playing table tennis and pool.
altho. last wk was really terrible too. cos other than the report and the ocean chem quiz, i was very vexed abt the lost data. other than the pple that couldn't help/ didn't want to help/ ignored me/ cheated my money... i thought abt giving up. all those things in the comp. joei told me it's not worth.
but i felt really. depressed. sad. disappointed. angry. desperate. alone. really helpless.
work last week also got me really. unhappy. frustrated. i dunno how i can work it out to help all of them. but the worse thing is i'm trying to save as much time to cover as much before their exams, they don't come, bcos of cca, sick etc. and i can't like not teach those who come, but i'm not allowed to go backwards either, but still they don't understand??? so frustrating. i hope tmr or rather later, they miraculously know all their stuffs already......haha
this week was studying week. the weather is damn bad. hottt. but i went to the library, both je and jw, then mac today and ytday to study-- i was freezing. so cold i had brain freeze, and today i was totally shivering. my teeth chattering, but i couldn't move away, cos all the things were on the table - my sis actually went outside to play bball. okay. i was really. worried and anxious. more than angry.
haiz.
i hope nxt week we study very hard and have enough time to cover everything before 4-7may. the week of the final exams.
i'm worried for the hols too. i'm vexed about my plans. they're all messed up. i dunno wat to do now. i have to earn money, but i can't do stable jobs with office hours, but then temp jobs are mostly like that. i can't do odd jobs either my saturdays are occupied. a mess. i think i would still be kinda stressed after the finals also. haiz.
so.
yup. tt's the 1 post for april.
all the best to us.
♥reflected @ 12:33 AM
