Sunday, March 15, 2009 ♥
its like march 15 already. time flies.
have been slacking a lot i think.. although these 3 wks had to work harder a bit cos of ch presentation and all the mid terms. which are not done yet. still got 2 more midterms on the way nxt wk, then 1 more presentation, 1 essay, 2 more cas and a quiz... that's like until finals. woa.
starting to dislike ch2291 even more. haiz.
anyways. work is getting more and more tiring. considering the fact that going there by bus is damn hard cos will have to wake up earlier and 99 comes like really long intervals which sux, cos we always end up late, and even later cos we always get into taxi drivers who drive us elsewhere other than where we intend to go. which totally sux, cos not only have to feel sorta threatened my boss, also have to hear my mum nag again.
moments thr out the week, i had been quite pissed off, frustrated.. by things in school or people in general, or just plain stress, sometimes i wonder if i'll become depressed, which i am not going to be so cos there's like so many things to do. being depressed means not being able to do much just wallowing in your own world kinda like somebody i always try to avoid facing every day who refuses to do smth else. like.
anyways.
work is really getting more and more tiring, cos students increased, student types increased, different syllabus, jump topics, different standards in just one class. and no choice i have to follow throughout, and in order to help them, and also becos i'd feel it to be unfair if i just ignore those other than majority, i split the class and like teach two different things to two different groups of pple in one class. as a result i speed up things, then i worry abt them understanding. kinda. crap right. and facing people who talk only of their stuffs other than the work at hand...it's tiring, esp a grp. but i guess it's better than silence. at least they are willing to talk to me i guess. but oh wells.
i was quite upset for a while. low morale and all.
sorta deeply integrated into me. like a hidden wound.
but it's life. i mean i can quit, try some other place, and it'll be the same. cos it's still me. i guess.
anyway i pity kids nowadays- studies are not the only important part, cca takes up a lot too. today they complained to me about their march 1 wk hols is all used up for remedials, camps and ccas. which is really crazy.
which reminds me that i had really wanted to join a cca this sem. and when i actually decided to, the person spent nearly a month to reply until now, i no longer am interested again. which is kinda ridiculous cos u still gotta pay membership. for? but oh wells.
last saturday i was damn beat. like. same work all the way until nearly 5.30, took the bus to jurong point, switch to travel down pioneer and then all the way to pasir ris. it was a damn long ride. tried to sleep on the mrt a bit. went to aloha loyang where hannah's 21st early bdae pary was held. hang about for abt 1 hr with sis and left. same took mrt back also. damn tiring. like standing throut the entire day, sit for nearly 2hrs, then walk here and there. by the time i got home, i was so tired that the moment i put my bag down, i laid on the floor and fell asleep. like with the clothes unchanged, the makeup everything and my glasses. i just fell asleep from like 11.30pm straight to 2.30am. after i woke up then i realised i had fallen asleep, so had to drag my feet to wash up. i guess. going out after work is not a really good idea after all.
last friday i had baked an apple crumble for her, but i wasn't really happy abt the taste. cos it's sorta turned softer after i brought to school, so it's no longer that crunchy. even though it looked even more pretty than previous attempts.
i'm falling asleep when i'm typing this already.
hmm.
been slacking. watching shows online.
1st. 败犬女王
2nd. Mei chan's butler
3rd. Boys over flowers (korean version of meteor garden)
was disappointed over the 2nd iljimae, so didn't continue watching it.
been listening to more korean songs.
bobby kim's more blues, rap hiphop;
东方神起 (dbsk)
and shinee. (shinee's really young, like 18/19?)
been watching movies on tv.
casino royale. (very interesting and complex plot)
van helsing. (watched it like 4 times already -underworld is v much different altho it's same main actress and abt vampire)
today: reign of fire.
wait. he's the guy fr this?
super different.
i hope i dun watch this tmr:
cos like there's midterm on monday. =(. which i haven't started studying yet at all. but watching it on tv and vcd is like v different. cos its like big and clear on tv. =(. haiz.
yup i'll end here. my eye lids are getting really heavy now..
♥reflected @ 1:10 AM
