reflections

Friday, June 13, 2008 ♥

so vexed now.

cos. i really need to be working and earning lotsa of money, but until now, i'm still jobless.

and i hurt my toe.

and it's still pain now. damn. it's v painful actually. i had to take painkillers last night so that i could sleep.

damn.

anyway. this week.

monday was bro's bdae. on sunday (the day before) me and sis went to jp to shop for a gift for him. (and a ball for sis, cos hers retired) so we actually got him a t-shirt fr 77th street. i was thinking of getting him tt thing tt holds the ipod thinggy while u run kinda cos he always held onto his as he run which isn't gd i guess, but it was out of stock then. so on monday we went to imm and had lunch together at baystreet21. actually wanted to post some picts.. but i thought they don't look very good. so. but anyways, on the same day, mum also bought a new oven, blender and rice cooker.

on tuesday. sis and i went swimming at je complex (we shld ve gone to the new complex at the dunno where tt our boss mentioned but we didn't think of that) i love swimming. but we didn't swim for v long, cos sis needed to get the centre. so after she left to travel to there, i went to shop for ingredients for making apple crumble and muffins. yup. quite x stuffs nowadays, added up to quite an amount. haiz. but anyways, so i cut up 5 apples and stuffs, and made... apple crumble! (the recipe was from videojug - they actually have videos for all kinda stuffs like how to choose a wedding dress to how to make a brownie).

stewing the apples...

the crumble! which we ate with icecream also. which was far too sweet we thought.. i shld cut down the sugar part. (even tho i really cut down by a lot already hmm..)

on wednesday. i intended to go out to return library books and go walk ard, but unfortunately. i got myself hurt, so ended up at alexandra wrapping my toe up after some checkup and stuffs. haiz.

so on thursday then i made the muffins. which were a bit dry sorta. but at least they smell kinda gd.

today. i didn't do much except for watching a lot of tv.

i feel fat la. cham. i planned to exercise a lot. but now i can't do much. and yet i keep eating.

i've been feeling quite dejected last week actually. cos of feeling disappointment with myself. cos i set some goals for this holiday. but i seem to not be able to achieve anything. and now i even convinced myself it's okay? such a failure. geez. haiz.

mum has been asking me things. tt are so true and so vexing. and so much that we hide from. how we hide from facing it. how lousy i am actually. cos i can't do anything much. no actually i can. but i dun find myself doing. cos i'm lousy. kinda. i'm actually hiding myself fr the truth also? i wish. i cld face the truth and really do things right. but..

anyway. i heard this song on the radio one day.

by maroon 5 - won't go home without you

guess wat. i only knew the lead singer looks like tt this yr. and i was impressed and surprised, cos i nvr thought the singer is actually white lean and tall and looks like tt.

kinda reminds me of james blunt.

and also soda green. the chinese band, whose lead singer's voice when i first heard i mistook as a girl's. whose most famous song is 小情歌 which 萧敬腾 the famous guy fr the taiwan star search show sang it so differently kinda like opera like how he sang jay chou's the secret song at the golden horse awards (issit the golden horse?) but ya. anyway. soda green's kinda cool. bands a cool la. like loveholic. but there are some bands i still don't like. cos i thought they are like a bit of crazy. haha. ya.

but anyway here's soda green's 小情歌 live version just violin and guitar which i think is really cool.

and 小宇宙. which i think is diff fr 小情歌 tt's why it's nice. the lyrics are kinda gd too. haha. but the la la la part.. i feel it's kinda weird.

yup. tt's all for now.

i must sleep early. must. cos there are so many reasons why i should.

♥reflected @ 11:43 PM