i had wanted to post a new post. then i thought, aiya just edit the old one. then i thought, aiya might as well.
anyway. yesterday was first day of schl and already i'm very stressed. just the beginning and i'm feeling damn stressed.
absolutely worried. about balloting. about lecture notes. about money.
yup. money. feel damn stressed up.
if only 5 months ago. if only 5 months ago. my dad hasn't gotten stroke. if only 6 months ago. if only 6 months ago. i had successfully pushed my dad to seeing a doctor. if only 2 months ago. if only then. after my dad had the stroke. he didn't have any extra depression and stuffs. if only he had been so motivated and perserved and exercised and recovered.
if only 19 years ago, i wasn't borned to this world. if only 25+ years ago, my parents hadn't married each other. if they hadn't known each other, if my mum hadn't tolerated all those stuffs.
IFFFFF
this is damn sianed-ing. cos i actually i started typing this post like 7pm. but i had to stop halfway for my bro and my sis to use the comp, and i went discovering more of my notes bla bla bla
i am so damn stressed up.
wah lao. i can't stand myself le.
it makes me even more stressed to talk to pple who are not stressed at all, and they can't emphathise with how you feel.
tsk.
ok. i think i'm just going to end here, with a nice song, w.r.t the previous post.
♥reflected @ 8:06 PM
REFLECTIONS
I sit and cry thinking of all the regrets
How life seems to be always unfair.
I move on putting any dreams away
Hoping that I'll find them come some rainy day.
No matter how tired and weary
I will walk on.
