actually i'm quite very tired now cos my eyes feel very sleepy.. but don't want to go sleep yet. besides my hair isn't dry yet.
just watched tv from 9.45- 11.30, inclusive of the mediacorp chinese show, the hongkong show and a bit of prison break.
this week. wasn't any better. today was late for work cos i woke up late and broke the glass bottle containing milk because for a moment my ankle didn't feel quite well. i already broke a plate and a bowl in the last few weeks or last month. felt quite shitty.
yesterday had to bring my dad to acupuncture at clementi, and we were 1.5hr earlier, and i stood in my heels while my parents sat at the chairs waiting. that explains why my legs were hurting and ankle incident this morning. at least i got some rest here and there when i went for dinner at the food centre nearby. but i had to endure my mum's frustrations.. which i really don't know how i can help wish i could. it just keeps telling me to give up.. and then after the session, took a cab and the driver was telling us about a healer..and my dad was very anxious, and he also kept telling the driver that being a taxi driver less stressful than his job and so on so on. well. seriously each job has its own bads. there is no such thing as no stress in any job. cos HALLO, i'm working damn hard now.. how come you don't see i'm really stressed, and appreciate all of us who are working so hard for you....
of course all of the above, i don't voice it out loud. they are just words of frustration. yes i am really vexed and worried about the uni issue, but that's not the only thing, i have so much that makes me stressed. so if i cry i really just need some time to keep to myself and let out some pressure..i just need to cry. after that i will pick myself up and move on again. or rather continue walking.
there are so many times that i feel hopeless, feel like giving up. which is not a choice because of responsibilities. but really if i give up and that will be no need to worry about anything at all..nothing to worry at all,
that will be nice. i think.
anyways, thank you to all who read my blog and post comments etc showing encouragement. thanks for being somewhere around. as always, i am still hoping something good will happen, which doesn't seem to be coming yet.
can't continue already. my eyes are closing.
here's smth. i like the song --
♥reflected @ 11:35 PM
REFLECTIONS
I sit and cry thinking of all the regrets
How life seems to be always unfair.
I move on putting any dreams away
Hoping that I'll find them come some rainy day.
No matter how tired and weary
I will walk on.
