Wednesday, July 12, 2006 ♥
"Whisper" ~evanescence
Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)
I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end_____________________________
i'm worried.
i doubt myself. i doubt the future. i was still feeling okay actually. and i was set all to go on monday after i met those guys for the cip kids program. all prepared to lead them and plan smth gd out.
and today. i arranged a meeting to meet the grp of ppl i'm working with, and like. the j1s couldn't come yet cos they have a seminar. and the j2s only jonathan, and joel and chenyan who won't be actually involved in it turned up.
last night i was all prepared, wrote out a list of stuffs to do, and today recess i went to zap the origami bks..and
just now.
i was
lost. i felt totally lost.. i had no idea what to say and how to move on from there.
i'm scared i'll fail myself and everyone else. and i scared i have already done so.
and i didn't actually realise that until just now i was talking to sabbie on msn.
truthfully, i'm not just worried about tt cip on coming saturday.
i'm worried about the coming chem and bio tests on friday and also how much time i have until prelims, but still never manage to start any revision.
aren't i such a failure by keep worrying?
haiz. it's ok..i'm alright. still holding on. still going on being brave.
and try battle all those stuffs down. grr.
que sera sera.
whatever wil be, will be.
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♥reflected @ 9:17 PM
