Monday, June 12, 2006 ♥
i was thinking..i realized that the times i cried was because i was angry at myself, angry at how i can't live up to my own expectations, angry at how i've disappointed myself, how i can't maintain a calm composure at things, how i can't concentrate on my studies, how i can't control my feelings etc etc.. and then, these anger became sadness at my own incapabilities.
then i am angry at myself being such a crybaby.
then i realized that i haven't really grown up yet and still am so stupidly childish and naive.
talk about self-realisation.
alright man. then again, it's always i noe this, and that, i can't jus apply. how come i can give gd advice to ppl but for myself..
well wellAnYwAy
i have wasted two weeks and 1 day off. wasted. damn it. i still have the piles of hw lying down there staring at me. how now? i dun think i'll be able to finish them. it's like totally impossible. hmmz
last fri 4/3's class outing..didn't go..:( last monday was 2sd3's class outing..but i was at guitar camp.
i've wasted all those days AWAY!! oh no...i watched so many vcds..played games..etc etc slacked ard. oh dear...
today's xinyi's bdae!(oh dear..i think it's going to be after 12 already) went to her house after so so so much hesitation, thinking, frustration, indecisive,fickle-minded me. the best part abt the day was the sparkles!! hahaa :) and the cake..and the so u think u can dance..etc
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO XINYI!!
also..i cannot forget..
Happy belated birthday to ti lin~!
and also to my brother! :P
ya.
so..ding dong the antique old grandfather clock sounds...
*lights out!
♥reflected @ 11:53 PM
