Thursday, May 11, 2006 ♥
on wed. sajc vs. acjc. rugby semi-finals. at thomson rd, at police academy. i couldn't go down and support.
the whole day i feeling so agitated and gloomy and worried. i sorta knew tt smth bad will happen. but i didn't want to go ask abt the result. cos i wanted to study for bio test. cos i sorta knew that it is tt tt would happen. cos i didn't want to believe it.
anyway.
we lost. or rather, acjc rugby team lost.
the moment esther confirmed my 'belief'. i was. i dunno. not happy. i guess. it was a mixture of dread, sadness and i dunno. totally confused. well. all i can say is tt i'm sorry for hawyi. i guess it was really impt to him. but.
life's like tt. and i guess he's strong and capable to take this blow. somemore he has lotsa frens ard him.
well. nothing much else to say. jus that i thought i lost my pencil, went to buy a new one and found it today. waste my money. hahaa.
and that.
i really want to tell ppl that. jus because u have ur problems all solved, or u have no problems, and that u are happy, does not mean that everyone else is happy. if u r happy does not mean tt ppl cannot be sad. if u can't stand pple being sad. then it's ur own prob. if u have a really happy family it doesn't mean that everyone else has.
think abt the orphans. think abt the ppl in poor places like africa where they dun even have their three meals ensured. and dun give me bullshit tt since there are ppl worse off than u, u shld be happy that u have all they don't.
cos U'll never understand ME wholely and absolutely, when u are not me. and when i dun even really understand myself. and you dunno wat probs i have cos u dun care to noe and i can't tell you. so get off my back.
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thank you to tilin who chatted with me today..
here by me says:
i noe. it's like i noe all abt wat i shld do and wat not. and wat's impt etc
here by me says:
my mind and heart and wateva jus dun apply wat i noe
tilin says:
tt often happens 2 gal i guess
tilin says:
we tink n worry 2 much
tilin says:
juz let go sometimes
tilin says:
u dun haf 2 'force' urslf 2 tink so much abt wad u wan in life
here by me says:
i dun wan much in life
i jus want a happy family, and tt i can do well in studies and in future a stable income
tilin says:
oh tt's gd
u've it all planned out
tilin says:
so y are u worrying now
tilin says:
juz study 1st
then do e rest ltr
here by me says:
things won't happen the way u want them to be
tilin says:
ya true
bt juz plan 2day
tilin says:
worry tmr
-haiz-
LIFE'S REALLY JUST LIKE THAT.
♥reflected @ 10:25 PM
