Saturday, May 27, 2006 ♥
june holidays are here..
but lots and lots of work to do. gp reading package, 2 compres, the whole of 10000 words, 6 essay outlines.three maths prelims papers. two chem prelims, nucleic acids, periodicity. bio prelims, bio essay, bio sup summary, e-learning for asexual reproduction, bio tutorial for growth and development. 4 econs case study, all outlines for macroeconomics topics, econs tys.
then i still have 2 consultations for gp, consultation for econs. then i'm going to the guitar camp.
sian-ed. wat a holiday.
yesterday recieved a msg telling us that we have to go back to the nl to get our bio prelim papers and notes ourselves, and becos it would be locked the window is opened for us to climb in.
goodness.
anyway.
my dad bought a new computer, and it's a lot different from our old one. actually i won't mind if we don't have a new comp, i rather that the money is saved for better purposes, which are more important and necessary. well, even tho we have been using the old comp since..eh..very long la. before i was in sec1.
yesterday watched jewel in the palace and in the end there was a prelude, like a clip showing wat will happen during the next episode. again. ren xin bu zhu she tun xiang. and all those evil acts arouse out of a simple word: jealousy.
jealous of those better than you, becos you dun think that they have the zhi ge to be of higher rank or simply be better than you. everyone has jealousy. no matter wat. it's just how jealous you are. like in jewel in the palace, the main evils aren't really bad from the core, they have just been so jealous till it rules their heads and start to do those bu ke ling yu stuffs.
i admit i have been jealous before, but not as extreme as them. i didn't understand how some pple can be this and that, and then start to think bad about them, like think that they are irresponsible and stuff. it actually is because of different viewpoints and personalities, and i can tell that in the environment i am in, pple around me take things so much easier than me, they are not as serious as i am, and that everything is simple to them and can even be a laughing matter.
anyway, i don't want to go into that.
yesterday the new guitar coach came to take a look at us and hear us play. so that we and he can decide whether we want each other as coach and learners.
well. i don't like him. the moment he did smth to annoy me.
i was quite impressed actually, at first when he first stepped in. but he did this one single thing, that made me think that this guy is no hope. no. actually he also said another thing that makes my blood boil even more.
there's nothing wrong with him actually. i'm just against the way he did tt thing.
good government, good ensemble.
i dun think it applies to guitar, and it will never also. cos it started this way, going to be like this, as long as the same cycle takes place.
yes, the pple are capable. so wat if they are. so wat if you can teach single-handedly everyone the skills. and now you complain it's because there aren't enough ppl who are good enough, no one is as good as you to do the same.
i jus want to say that a good guitar player does not necessary equate to a potential good leader. it only shows ability to play the guitar, not even ability to teach. if everyone can teach well, then nie won't exist, will it?
watever it is. since everyone else has no objections to him, it means i'm the only one with a problem, i'm the only one with a different view. which means that i have to change my viewpoints. actually my sis explained to me-that all ccas are like that. i guess so. which means that i have to live with it.
yep. it will be a growing process for me eh. i hope.
♥reflected @ 1:31 PM
