Sunday, October 23, 2005 ♥
busy busy
yesterday had open house.
friday we got back all our promo paper results, handed up written report for the darn pw, and prepared for yesterday's open house.
thursday after school went to the library with sis, who at first was saying that maybe we go bowling or watch a movie together, but we still ended up going to te jurong east libary in the end. i bought you magazine so that i can read about the wang zi bian qing wa, cos i noe that i won't get to watch it. indeed. but ever since after school i was feeling quite blue already. at first i felt okay if i don't get to watch it bcos my parents want to watch tong xing yuan, but it ended up my dad letting my bro watching channel 5 which pissed me off. in the end i went up and hid myself and started crying again. for the whole week i cried nearly every day. so it's like the stupid tv was the catalyst this time, and made me think of so so many things i just kept crying..thinking of how hard it is to find just one person to sit with me and lend me a shoulder to cry on.how hard it is to find one person to talk to.these few days i mostly hanged out with sabbie and her friends..though most of the time i was just stoning..so i went to bed at about 9.30 on thurs.yet on fri morning when i woke up i was still so tired..my eyes felt so sore and tired.and when i reached school.i felt dark blue.haha.
so when xinyi called me and i went to sit with her at the bleachers..i just sat there and started crying again..and when i went back, joei told me i to tie her hair so that i cheer up but in the end i started tying and crying again instead..and joanne was shocked..haha..really sorry i was just not the mood tt day
maybe it was just pre-results stress..
so..we went to nl14 and waited for so so long for our results.i had to check wuijia's papers too..so shou mang jiao luan..haha.anyway..my results were all predictable..i didn't actually had to see them to noe how i did..i already xin zhi du ming after each paper. and i noe which teachers are especially disappointed in me..i am really sorry to them.i am disappointed in myself too.for chem and maths. i failed chem and passed maths with a 50.can tell that kayden lim is very disappointed and upset with me..
i don't really noe abt the other ppl in class, how they did, but i really hope tt everyone will get promoted or at least advanced.i do noe that there are many ppl who will have to drop 4th sub. there's only 6 ppl taking econs and only me, andrew and xiangning passed.ms wong is also very disappointed in us.lucas, adelle and i think hawyi too have to drop econs i think..but i hope they don't have to.cos i dun want to have only 3 ppl in class, plus i really believe that hawyi's gd at econs.
after getting back the results and handing in our wr, we went to the hall for briefing on open house then started preparing for open house.finally got everything in place.
yesterday open house was quite boring for me. went there at 9, brought my discman but the hall was so noisy couldn't hear a thing,if not i blasted my earphones so loud until my eardrums hurt.it was supposed to be my shift but then there were so many ppl there, i was extra.helped draw labels and went to see dance and drama performance.my brain was so disorientated cos of a wierd and confusing dream i had on fri night, i was sleeping and blur.walked sabbie out and hera in.then i was so sian i went to the bleachers with my discman sat there and listened to celine dion. nearly fell asleep then the vp walked past asked if i'm ok and told me not to sleep there. waited for a while, got my guitar and my sis came, handed over my guitar for dad and mum to bring it home. so i brought sis a walk around.let her see the shooting stuff- only thing she was interested in.went to cafe to eat and injured my finger. watched a bit of strings..went to bleachers again..cos open house was really boring so i watched ppl playing touch rug and my sis read while we listened to jay chou at the same time. had to fight the urge to run a rew rounds around the track, but sis said dun want to attract attention furthermore nobody's looking after our stuffs. she commented that the small grp performance by our guitar ensemble is as if guit only have tt few ppl.well..wat can i say?
then we left went to jp walked around and saw the very cute guitars of all shapes and sizes..ate dinner and brought sis to cut her hair. and haha cut my fringe too..but sis always look cooler than me..my fringe is like hers, but she looks cool, i look stupid.
i have so much stuff to do. i&r, chem file, alkenes, op...
haiz. i have to look over my papers too..
now..WATCH TV!!
♥reflected @ 10:07 AM
