i feel like crap.
pple love to treat me like shit.
.
and i act like a piece of shit.
i'm childish and immature. i noe that. i ve been telling myself that i should think before i do anything, i should think before saying anything...

guitar concert is next friday.
yet. we are no where. not playing as an ensemble yet. not every song is learned. not every one is clear. what we are doing? i myself am getting slacker, i myself am becoming more and more xin hui yi len.

okay i noe it. pple hate me. cos i complain a lot. i noe it. i can blab and blab non-stop about how the day is bad for me, what i did wrong. if not, i might not blab anything, keep myself shut and dun say anything. either pple hate me cos i talk and complain too much or cos i show tt i'm not happy, but dun explain..

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shut up. i'm going to tell myself. i'm not going to allow myself say wrong things again. i shall also not show any emotion to anyone, so that no one needs to ask, i do not need to answer. plus, pple seldom care anymore. i'm used to being ignored.

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I sit and cry thinking of all the regrets
How life seems to be always unfair.
I move on putting any dreams away
Hoping that I'll find them come some rainy day.
No matter how tired and weary
I will walk on.


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