Saturday, May 21, 2005 ♥
damn sian.
i got back to my hectic life.
i discovered that i stone more nowadays, even with my guitar friends. i feel tt i'm drifting off from everyone i know.
i dun noe.
it's feels like i m shutting up...after effects of being ignored???
i'm drifting off from everybody, incl. my family.
i'm like stoning and thinking silently everytime...
i could be a talking non-stop person, it's just, now, tt character of me dun stand out.
sumtimes, it makes me think that, it makes no difference to say somehing...ot that it just not worth to say anything...
oh well...i shld put an end to all tt crap.
this coming thurs is the rugby finals...ac against rj. suddenly, i dun feel anything, as in a wanting our schl to win feeling. it's like it's not my business. i dun care whether they win or not. even if they lose...i dunno..just too bad larh.
camelot is coming.
the drama pple practically dun sleep everyday and just do their sewing and practising. and we are no better, we are forced to buy the tickets. they say it's for the crap building.
a lot of other tournaments competitions are coming...
good luck to them.
all these days, i have been in the "self-pity and depression" mode.
i can't play guitar.
i lost the bio tys i just got it yesterday.
i dunno how and wat to talk to pple.
i suck in pe- ie i cant do well for napfa.
i am not doing well in my studies.
i am losing out.
i dunno whether i m working hard at all.
i am a failure.
i m not pessimistic.
all of that is true.
hahaz. haiz...i will soon get over all that, until i face the truth of failing again.
♥reflected @ 4:43 PM
