Friday, March 25, 2005 ♥
Thank you SeowTing for your encouragement!
Next week we will be having mass lectures, in other words, I guess I will be in a less stressed mood. And it also means that I will have some free periods, and I hope that I can go swimming next Tuesday, becos I am free from 11 plus onwards, but have to wait for guitar till 4.30….
Joan says I look like a fortress, my sis says I like unapproachable and David asks me everyday why I look sad, why I don’t smile….
Haiz.
meixi….how come you can be so cheerful everyday?
I tried to be, I once was, but so many things happened; I am not now, and is on my way giving up to be a wat pple call an optimistic person. Neither am I pessimistic. It’s just that most of the times…I…don’t feel anything. Or rather, I am in a serious mood. I don’t know why and dunno how to change me.
I still remember my sec 3 ‘motto’ was xiao kou chang kai, and I kept it up until half way someone popped up in my very innocent life. In sec 4, I tried to start afresh, yet so many things happened. Like I said before, I tried to put the many things behind me, and thought I was successful. But in the end I discovered I don’t seem to have been successful, that was on the day after o level results came out, on ac’s founders day. It wasn’t becos of the o level results; I remember crying for dunno whatever reasons, when in my hands I held the result slip. It was again becos of someone else, of something that happened, which brought out what happened to me. And for dunno whatever reasons, I couldn’t keep calm that night. After that I thought I finally got over everything.
Now I don’t understand why I typed all that.
The nan hua pple I noe are all in nj, and I am so miserable and alone in ac.
I hope when the second intake enters, I can start anew again.
♥reflected @ 8:21 PM
