Thursday, October 07, 2004 ♥
Okay. Now I know.
I am a poor kid living in a poor family. At this age, I am still a young child.
I cannot afford broadband for internet, cannot afford a handphone or even a discman, I cannot even afford to buy my own things.
PLUS Now I cannot afford to go to chalet.
My parents ask me why i should go.
My parents tell me it is not necessary.
My parents tell me it is not ke xi at all.
My parents ask me why I should pay.
NOw I cant even afford to pay the school magazine and the graduation day.
So. Shall I go out and earn my money now?
So, it's tt the reason why my dad suggests that i go to poly?
then, how come my brother gets a handphone, a discman, goes to independent school- chinese high and is now in HCJC?
They could afford all that. But not for me and my sis.
They say they are very fair.
My mum says dad cares for me and my sis a lot.
My mum says dad doesnt even care for her.
Strange. We cant see that.
Look. We cant even afford a rice cooker, not to say a washing machine. My mum washes the clothes by hand.
Strange. We cant afford those high tech things selling outside.
When I first asked dad abt sec1 chalet, there was hope. In the end, no.
When I asked abt sec2 chalet, i didnt even feel like asking. it is still, no.
forget abt sec3.
Now. Sec 4. I asked abt the 2/3 and 4/3 chalet, when he first sees $330, he asked why should we pay?
My mum says, bu ke xi, in future you will have lots of chances, the person who shld be going is her.
huh???
I am holding back tears while typing this.
So. Sorry peeps, I will not be going to any chalet.
so. after os, i will be home preparing for jc.
as for prom............
suddenly all sad things come to me.
I am so miserable.
at least you pple have your hangout grps. me, i only have su phei who doesn't stand be me at all.
i walk myself to the bus stop and home everyday.
after prelims, i'm back home packing.
the only thing i can turn to, is however, my books.
i hooked myself to books, to pull myself away from reality.
Don't feel like facing it.
So, books. That's it. Reading's my hobby.
now i have to think how to fork out money to pay for su phei's birthday present, and maybe wanying too, school magazine, prom and everything.
and mum says it is actually me and my sis 's fault for dad's hand injury.
so. how are we supposed to handle that?
are you people going to wish me luck for my os?
hahahaha
can you see i'm crying?
face it.
don't go don't go lorh
♥reflected @ 7:25 PM
